Acne sucks

I HATE ACNE!!!

wiLL RuN

Damn tiring day today!!! Cramps here and dere, ouch man...its like im walking and suddenly i fall down in pain lol O_O

Ran 15 rounds today...argh omg im still unsatisfied...eeerrkk blame it on my ah-Q 精神...I have like minor blood disorder from those medicine and omg the doc advised me not to play tough sports la..cos i will get tired easily...and nvm i feel like a loser saying all these. =X nvm..shall go on..

Actually feeling quite guilty now...I'm not supposed to blog...aft wad Mr Lau's time management talk wif me and my mum...T_T but since i did so much for WR today...shall reward myself~

omg la today, dunno since when i've fallen in love with...



...writing love/romance chinese compos!!! lol...its like w/e the qn is...there still be some love thingy inside haha~ Wa lao, i was just listening to Jay Chou songs...and omg there's so many phrases i can use from those lyrics...and damn, i jus passed up a compo after will run...obviously its abt love too lol...and i could have added in a touching phrase into it if i had listen to his songs then T_T btw, i tink i like writing chinese compos; i want more. =X so fun to write lah. XD can make tcher cry i really HAPPY alr! XD

Example (conclusion): 心里的眼泪， 模糊了视线，我已快看不见...

LoL.

So glad everything's fine now within my PW group. Yea bad things DO happen for the GREATER GOOD. Now we're better and cooperative (And Enthusiastic) than ever :) Im glad. Bad things DO happen for the greater good.

Well, nvm abt that, omg Physics SPA tml, and chem gaseous state quiz tml...oh my gosh! =X
and crap i still havent (duno how to) do Functions T_T, yea im a solo'er, i prefer studying myself rather than asking tchers for help, but wif exceptions like chem/phy tchers =P omg and i just rmb i bought $63 worth of assignment books...so..thats $120-$63= $57 left for my piggy @ home. T_T Omg haha and Happy bdae to Daniel and Geraldine; happy 17th!

And ytd @ NYNY was freaking yummy! and hilarious! omg. (Rohith/me/YK/Daniel) haha lols its like this...when we got the bill, price was $113.23...so we paid 113.25 exact, ending with a 5 cents...and duno who, but i tink it's me or smmone else, LOL NOO WAIT, it's Rohith!! haha. So basically he wrote on a piece of tissue ppr, "Keep the change =)" omg la laughed till my chest pain when he put the ppr into the bill...and waited for the 'unlucky' waitress to come...lol, btw the manager looks dam fierce...so when he got not-so-near to us we were like oh shit. HAHA. THRILLING and FUNNY. Especially when the waitress opened the thing...'wah so good keep the change smmore..calculate* O_O 2 cents'. LOL and bloody hell all PS me at the table! Lols, 'cos i gt so much to pack espec the $63-worth assignment books!
And omg the waitress told me 'thank you...and THANK YOU for the change' lol. Lmao'ed.

Anws really gotta continue doing WR now...BYE!




Snapped out of it, finally! :/

Guitar.

Hmm...thx to my emoness/randomness/boredom; decided to come up with a design project for my dream electric...

photoshop'ed design, tryout

yea my when my imagination goes wild, I come up wif things like this haha;
Then...

Edited final dream design for guitar weeee~

omg... !

OMG DAMN NICE

YYYAWwwwwNNnnn~ Actually wanted to sleep aft studying for tml's Circular Motion Test T_T..weee i had a sudden urge to blog ya. :D

Freakin emo day for me, until the last few moments of it ^^. Emotionally stressed up = Gastric Pains!! >.<

Plus MT listening Compre, wah stress. And omg we had to report at 2.30, and they actually asked us to rest first till 3pm before the LC starts -_-. And plus the radio 92.4 symphony playing all those goodnight melodies...YAWN man and when it started i was like damn groggy and dizzy la, how to concentrate. But nvrtheless, hyped up and pulled thru. Amusing the invigilator is; Flashed someone's OAS sheet in front of the whole class just to remind us to write our NRIC and stuff...and i was agn like...wthell...thx....RETARDED.

And so aft that went to do all the Post-Mye Physics qns...Hmm I'd say I've learnt some things...And yea thx everyone~ :DD
HAHs nice crumpler tempo trade yea. It feels kinda fun LAWL.~
And I'm such a Avenged Sevenfold, Synyster GAtes/Zacky Vengeance WANNABE! Oh yes, I can see guitars and possibly guitar lessons coming towards me from the future!! Cant wait! Fun Awaits me!! Hey val, gotta go bras basah asap!! T_T

And lastly, i just hate my econs tcher!!!! Thanks la last min tell us to complete the econs file and do 3 essays in like less than a week? OMG, and the consequence is FAIR conduct for term 3. Are u kidding?? What a backstabber manzz..sigh. But still all of us still passed up...but haha those essays were untouched/undone/not bothered.

Wooo really cant wait for Will Run, i dnno y, but i feel like running more than 10 km. Relive the memories and blood, sweat and tears in the days of VSXC!

OKie gtg sleeep~ TC all :DDD

Sleeping late causes Acne outbreaks; No Joke. :/

InVesTiTuRE

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Investiture oveR!!!! Officially Councillors! XD

Next up, WILL RUN !!!

Will update more soon later, gotta do EoM! >.<

A Whole New World (LOVE singing this song! XD) Addicted~

I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

21st...

Council!

Me and my pinner :/


Phew, damn tiring day. :O But worthwhile. Well anws went to sch at ard 10 plus in the morn, and so had investiture rehearsal all the way till ard 4pm i guess. And i had mcdonald's agn for lunch, heheh gonna have sore throat soon - eating all those fries :S Lol. Then omg the rehearsals is so repetitive, doing the same things over and over agn...its really tiring and the last one i was like strugglin' and sleepy 'cos the doc's medicine's made me so ddrroowwssyy. zZz :/
Aft everything went to bubbletea agn wif the other councillors, and just wanna say, cheer up Alan!~ :D Your sun will shine one day!

stupid braces.

2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part

And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our last good-bye

That's something only love can do

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee feeling quite relaxed..., 'cos its Friday!, which gives me the time to destress...phewww~ :) yayness :D

So today woah started with physics test...This test although i know i might fail, but i tink I've improved? 'Cos usually I couldnt even write anything during physics tests, but this time i did and i'd say it's quite ok. So yea I'll work harder ROAR ;O During lunch went to eat and bubbletea'ed, and relaxed at the playground, lol, high angle pearl shots!! XDXD and omg today I've really seen wad's ROFL like, when joshua saw Mr Wong and hrd someone say shaolin monk or smth, he literally laughed his ass off and Rofl'ed @ the playgrd. HAHAs. anw, aft that went for ectra maths lesson..and hey thx for being my lawyer, must win the case too! muahaahhaha~

And hmm today aft maths was bad too...wasted some money agn on taxi, cos i had to bring the black leather shoes for council investiture rehearsal which i 4gt to bring for the past few days, luckily i made it in time, bleah. ok, investiture rehearsal was alright, but stood for damn long and my back is like aching...lol, im old alr :) altho it ended qite late i'd say its quite fun aft all, im kinda enjoying it hahas. And i smtimes forgot to walk/turn/do smth cos its like omg stood/sat for so long, started staring into space, and day-dreaming when im suppose to walk/turn etc. lol. :0

Tired, so aft invest rehearsals! comes the best prt of the day~ Lol not really, hahahs. So went out to mac with Rohith and Alan, saw the president and president-in-law...LOL. Oh yea found out a damn big secret..sealing my lips 100%...and omg Yong Khoon is so damn pro, thanks to rohith, who told me that YK actually knew before I knew that...wah.

And omg pls dun call me emo la...sometimes it's cos i was just deep in thought, not emoing and feeling sad ok. haiyo -_- happy life, long life. Enjoy while u can ^^ omg randomness. Oh well. Well, is think of that someone all the time considered emo? den maybe i am, i dunno :0 I'm tired, i wanna sleep, maybe listen to some HAPPY music...and omg thx to fanglin, preeti and bob, whoever paid for the taxi ride home, thanks so so so so soooooooo muchie :) and lucky they didnt suck much things outta me abt the 21st -_- phew.

hey so that sums up 11 july 08! hah, really cant wait for 23 july for the Will Run, im so gonna enjoy it XDXDXD running makes me happy~ :) so gtg, time to sleep tight and takecare, especially you you you you and YOU.


The small bee waiting for its life's only flower to blossom

thank you all.

Thanks to Miss Au, for talking to me, sorting my priorites and all, so in the end, decided to stay in SRJC, to work hard and BUG the teachers, and get good grades! Now poly is like my last resort, cos i dun wanna retain, I wanna go to J2!! But resigned as a councillor, spoke to Mr Lau abt it aft the hope-i'll-pass maths test, when I told him I got 4 Us he's reaction was like "Holy shit...omg." LoL, and also told him that i must be realistic and practical, if cant cope with studies and council,t's best to let go and join a less time-consuming cca.

Heys, im so glad I can concentrate on my studies more! And truckloads of worries and stress off my mind! :) No need waste money on taxi...and my mum kinda agreed to buy me and learn electric guitar...! But she say wait...duno when can buy...sigh rawr!!!!! =O LOL. Hmm crap still gotta choose a new cca, maybe track or odac...hahas. Wah must really thank Miss Au, really emo'ed frm morning..until chem lesson. RAWR teacher consultation GOGO!! aiming all B's for Promos! >.<

Feeling damn sad now. Sumthing's worrying me but i duno what.

God please guide me through this.

And when I think of all the places I just don't belong
I've come to grips with life and realize this is going too far

I don't belong in SRJC, I gotta move on dear escape from this stress
'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from SRJC

This life of mine's not right
No pain or sign of time
So out of place don't wanna stay, I feel wrong and that's my sign
I've made up my mind

I don't belong in SRJC, I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife
'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here
Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you

This place full of peace and light, and I'd hope you might
take me back inside when the time is right

AFterLife - AvEngeD SeVenFoLD

Like walking into a dream, so unlike what you've seen

so unsure but it seems, 'cause we've been waiting for you

Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste

of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway

I see a distant light, but girl this can't be right

Such a surreal place to see so how did this come to be

Arrived too early

And when I think of all the places I just don't belong

I've come to grips with life and realize this is going too far

I don't belong here, we gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife

'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here

A place of hope and no pain, perfect skies with no rain

Can leave this place but refrain, 'cause we've been waiting for you

Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste

of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway

This peace on earth's not right (with my back against the wall)

No pain or sign of time (I'm much too young to fall)

So out of place don't wanna stay, I feel wrong and that's my sign

I've made up my mind

Gave me your hand but realize I just wanna say goodbye

Please understand I have to leave and carry on my own life

I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife

'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here

Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you

This place full of peace and light, and I'd hope you might

take me back inside when the time is right

I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear

This place full of peace and light, and I'd hope you might
take me back inside when the time is right


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Today, hmm so glad im feeling much better? But still gotta taken medicine like 3 times of different 4 types a day. -_- omg 3 diff types of pills and one antibiotics. I felt as if i'm like a drug addict man. :( And omg, yea jus got addicted to Avenged 7Fold (A7X) thanks to my VSXC junior Anu...whu added me on frndster and i like viewed his profile, and Poof! i got the A7X disease. :)

OmgOmg! And thx to Anu for the songs~! :D

I got to escape, I got to move on, to a place full of peace and light. :)

Oh my God, just received a letter from Victoria School!! Ok lets see...Woah I'm invited to VS' 132nd Speech Day and wow I got a School Sports Colors Award..dats nice. :)

Tsk. Still have to go for the full dress rehearsal on 2nd Aug which is a Saturday!! T_T. But nvrmd,...I can take the chance to visit my sec sch agn!! Woah, comparing sec life in VS and jc life in SR, BIG DIFFERENCE, not just that, compare this:

And pathetic SR

Ah, sigh how I wish i can spend my sec and jc life just in Victoria School. Why must we change schools aft Os? Why can't we spend 6 years (just like in pri sch) in our sec sch getting Sec and JC education? What's wrong with the govt man. I miss VS lots. And i'm proud to be a VICTORIAN. And during the rehearsal and the VS Speech Day, I'm just gonna wear smart casual, not SR blazer and stuff - The thing is, I am not proud of SRJC, up till now.

Miss the VS days, sigh!! :(

Victorian Spirit

Once a Victorian, always a Victorian.

I think I'm wasting time in SR.

Had gastric right before lunch today, sad so requested for early leave as it was quite bad :( and thx to Mr Marcus Quek for sending me to the clinic and home.

So at the doc, phew the doc actually wanted to give me an injection, which i objected with a "NO PLEASE!" and the " T_T " kind of look. Yea, i got injection phobia. But there's one comin' up which i cant escape from - extraction of teeth ard Aug/Sep.

So aft writing me a 2 day-MC, he kinda counselled me for quite a while, asked me abt school and my daily life, how im coping with sch, frnds, family etc. And he kinda came to a conclusion that my gastric most probably came from stress and lack of sleep. :/ And I also told him abt how stressful sch is, PW which made me sleep for at most 2-3 hours only almost every nite, and especially council - how time consuming it was, and the watched feeling it gives me. And agn i blurted everything out bcos, i really needed someone to know my burden, or else its gonna get caged inside me forever and it really hurts bad. He advised me to quit council, and said that he doesn't mind writing a letter to SR. He still asked me stuff like u got any prob wif frnds, parents, and nxt he ask me whether i got bgr...and i said no and he sort of like "O_O, phew!". Oh my God - I really want to resign from council, but the consequences? I don't know. I dun care either? I want to quit, and maybe i'll do better in sch w/o a cca, or maybe join a less time-consuming one. Or maybe Poly. Why not Poly? Generally less stress, and you don't even need to keep ur attire in check cos the rules there are super slack. And who said poly cant go university? Plus polytechnics are really not bad, and they (duh) look damn nice, with all the facilities. To me now, its like heaven there la, and i rmbed the Republic Poly(SR Musical) and Temasek Poly(Pri sch Sports Day), omg they are like 100 times better than SRJC lah. And i guess the pace is slower there ? (obvious) and has more OPEN BREATHING SPACE? In SR, i feel damn choked up, the air is like stifling and it's like suffocating me. I tink i can die due to a lack of oxygen in SR :/

I dunno. What's demoralising me now is the academic ranking thing which might/might not, be shown by the Council TAs. If they are, its like, WHAT FOR, I dun tink they know that this method can be a "The End of being in SRJC" call, instead of a wake up call. Ya lah, i'm most probably gonna be the last (im serious), and if any TA wants to talk to me, im gonna take the chance, say i cant take the stress anymore - resign, i'd be better off w/o a cca. I've gotta look at things in a realistic way, if i cant cope, quit. I dun mind despite all the effort I've put (elections) in it, I've had the experience, I've learnt, but I can't cope with my studies and council. Everybody's different, some can, some can't. And its not giving up, its being practical and realistic. If i persevere and go on, it's GG for me, I'll end up being mocked. I dun wanna go on alr, if i do, and most probably , I'll surely retain, and my council cca is gone, so what is the freaking point of persevering if u know that you cant cope already. I want to be aware of where I'm going, rather than being a blind dog.

And oh ya the TAs told us that councillors are expected to reach sch before 7.00am nxt time aft investiture. I seriously dun tink i can make it on time, unless...(read on). Agn, becos of PW which made me keep late nites, and the council early reporting time, made my whole life is crappy and senseless. Now, the reporting time's currently set to 7.15am, which im already struggling with. The reason why I'm not late 98% of the time, is because of TAXI. I cant wake up early. Ok, is 6am considered early? cos im like slping at 2-3am, latest 4am cos of studies and pw and sometimes i dun even wanna sleep cos i scared i might just oversleep and the council TAs are gonna scold me agn. And, leaving the house at 6.30am as always, I still have no choice but to take a taxi to go sch. ftw, waste my fking money and its like fkin $10 (+ extra cost) per trip to sch, and on the way dere im like taking quick glances at my watch and my mind's all abt TAs scolding me if i were late. If i wasnt in council, i cud have taken a bus, and reach sch before 7.30am ftw. And this also caused me to dose off during lessons/lectures, and i dun tink the teachers/TAs know my reason. Perhaps they might advise me to wake up earlier, but how? I sleep mostly at ard 3am now, and how can you expect me to wake up at ard 5am or smth. Dumb, want blame my time management? dun tell me JC is all about studying and we have no time for fun? If that's the case, I think i shud quit council or withdraw from JC.

I dun seem to be interested in the investiture anymore but rather in my own future now - my studies. And pls dun tink that i delibrately made myself absent on the investiture rehearsal days delibrately, its my gastric flu.

So, speaking of taxi thing agn: I dun wanna waste money anymore, its really burning a hole in my pocket, and looking back, i tink i took ard nearly at least, 50+++ taxi trips to sch since i joined council. Lost 50x10 = $500, fk. Cud have gotten a PSP wif dat.
I'm really struggling now - PW's killing me, taking up so much time, and the bodoh teachers rejecting GPP all the time as if they tink we got alot of time to amend/do research. Plus i regret being the leader, sht, i shud have let cm be the leader last time. Now i feel its like my fault that my grp's Gpp get rejected all the time, actually it is, 'cos i cant seem to find time for PW meetings, with the council stuff. It's troubling me; all this PW and Council. I wanna get out. Maybe I should heed my doctor's advise: "Lets be practical, if sumthing doesnt suit you, then dont do it. If Council is taking too much of your time, its better for you to resign. I can write a letter to ur sch." "O_O WAH", was my expression then. I didnt exactly rmb all the things he said but i only roughly rmb this one above. He oso said that i really got no confidence in myself, aft the counselling. omg. Sigh, I dun really wanna care wad ppl tink abt me anymore, I wanna care abt myself, my future, I have full control over my life and nobody's gonna control me, especially council (sorry, being a leashed nerdy kuku dog is against my nature). W/o a cca, it wont kill me. Seriously, i wont die jus because i dun have a CCA! And if i resign, those ppl who come to me and mock me as ex-councillor sacarsticly are gonna pay by kissing the ground. :)



Time to make decisions.

I tink i shud start studying seriously. I shud spend more time practising and all. STOP playing.
4 U's is enough. I don't wanna go poly, I can't bear to leave my frnds and classmates. Pls start studying seriously.

Subjects to practice HARD (in order):

1. Maths
2. Chem
3. Physics
4. Econs

And there'll always be smth that'll be hindering me towards my goal - GPP. waste time.

"Happy life, long life"

I don't wanna be unhappy agn :)