Yay 34 more mins to Final Fantasy IX on PSP! and it's now like 99.3/100%...-_- yea you can imagine how long I took to download this. :/ But nvrmind!! 30 more mins left! Btw, nice music right? This music's from this game as well! :DD Any Final Fantasy Fans out there want the OST, I have the tracks~ :)


Haiz i really rather be a character in these rpg games, who goes through ups and downs with companions and finding their goals, discovering their truths/origins in life. Final Fantasy 9 - I want to play it, not because its fun or w/e, i know of cos its fun, but the most important thing in this game is the storyline, it makes me feel as if im experiencing the same thing with them, tragedies, happiness and all...yeah I've played it before, i miss the story, that's why im playing it agn. :) Ah, back the point, FF9's almost ready XD Hope it works well on my PSP so pls wish me good luck...

Omg, the download speed went up!! 8 more mins left!! Hmm, in the meantime, here's a short sypnosis:

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Dark times have spread over the world of Gaia. Four separate governing nations, some blinded by their short-sighted greed, some persevering in the name of justice, are battling on and off in a deadly game for power. One kingdom, that of Lindblum, headed by the honorable and trustworthy Regent Cid, finally decides to take a stand against the unspeakable massacres by the troops of Alexandria.


Enlisting the aid of mere bandits to kidnap Princess Garnet of the Alexandria Empire, for information and interrogation, Garnet and her bodyguard actually join Cid's cause, knowing full well the outlandish recklessness of the governing Queen, who counterattacks with an onslaught of warriors. Thus begins a crossfire that would engulf the world in something far worse than political standoffs.


Out of the band of thieves, one boy along with his entourage must battle his way through several awe-inspiring challenges to restore order and peace.

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99.9%, 5.7kb/sec XDXD Almost! 6 more mins!!

~FINAL FANTASY IX !!~

*tears of joy and excitement*

Yes, sighing again.

Warning: I'm moody when I typed this post, so there are some things that are either out of point or totally makes sense.

HHHHHHHaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiZZZZZZZZZZZZ. I don't want Monday to come T_T, OK I'll tell you what's bothering me. My knee's case. Ya..my knee's injured, bandaged, it's not that serious but it really hurts when I walk. So i decided not to go for Principal Tea Session. My parents are always working, until e nite. And I have no idea where a physician/doctor or w/e u call it. But luckily my Dad knows how to 'treat' my knee, so ya now it's bandaged. But the freaking prob is now, 'cos i smsed the TAs and said I couldn't go, they wanted an MC on Monday, a freaking MC, when I had no choice but to give a parents' letter. My knee hurt abit the day before the tea session and the day it hurt the most was on the teasession day, cos i walked too much the day before. It's a strain which I got often when I was running in the vs cross country days, so ya nth much, but it just hurts went walking, and i cant bend my knee much. But all these prev cases, I wud just let it 'heal' naturally. I duno, im frustrated, its only a tea session...I know its an official council event and an MC is required. But if i give a parents letter, i know u will nag. The pain has almsot gone away now, but i'll still put on the bandage, FOR PROOF. damn it. I've nvr been to all those wad i call 'bone specialists' before, and I duno how to go? even if i decide to go, i think i'll take yrs to crawl there on that day? Ya so hell im giving a parents letter and i'll see how it goes. If don't accept parents' letter, fine, just mark me as 'Did not turn up PURPOSELY' la, U tink im scared? Conduct grade only what. Fair then fair lah, it's not as if its a death sentence liddat. ftw

And next is Council, bothered me hell lots. I really dislike this feeling, the kinda hypocritical and sacarstic feeling. Especially rats+nm. You cant and will nvr be a frndly person to me. Show black face/ultra strict face and attitude all the freaking time right?. It doesnt make you fierce. If i dun know u and i see u outside, u are jus some thing i dun even gif a damn about. Even if you want to be friendly, to me, I really feel that you are just sacarstic and 'hiding a knife behind your back'. Boring and everything's dry, with ur presence in council meetings - there's no fun at all, to me. You make the atmosphere freezing cold and everything u say to me is filled with sacarsm. I dun feel happy, and speaking of that, now i realise being in the council gives me the feeling of being watched with a keen eye. Luckily im not elected for exco, or else this feeling will be worst. This feeling pressurises me, it stresses me, it makes me frustrated, and my every wrong actions, are 'exposed' to the rest in a sacarstic manner and the person gave me a quick 'ha i owned u' kind of stare. I know I fell asleep, i know i DOODLED during the Event-management seminar. For the sleeping part, you think i wanted that? u tink we are all humans who can sleep early? WHAT? Blame myself on my time management? JC's life's all abt sudying and no fun? I tink u shud get a life seriously. I wud rather u scold me, then show me ur sacarsm skills. I know ur sacarsm skills maximum level alr la, i congratulate u for getting the [Outstanding Sacarstic Skills Award]. Lucky there's only 1+ yrs left to go, or maybe less than half a yr 'cos of poly. I wanna get out asap. Luckily, frnds in council & classmates kept me going. But still the time for regret has come. I 'quited' canoeing wasnt because it was tiring, but dirty. Didnt join track cos i had enuff of it during my secondary sch days. So since most PAE frens are in council, and the idea of organising all those events, rocks, so i joined Council, without considering the harmful effects. I really dislike being always aware of my actions and especially my attire, I've no prob with my uniform, but my hair i want it long(abv average), i swear i'll nvr cut it as short agn. WHAT. see me with long hair jealous? or does it piss u off? And if u see me with outrageous hairstyles pls come and tell/scold me, dont just notice from behind and tell urself 'Thomas u r owned, ur conduct grade is gonna suffer' or sth. Damn. I seriously dont care alr, I know councilors must always keep in check of their attire, but sorry, its my habit - i can't live with high slope and no fringe, etc. I dun care abt wad council conduct alr, i cud have joined some other sports cca and live life stressfree, with no 'u are being watched' feeling and long fringe and tail :). So now im just gonna give that parent's letter and i won't give a damn abt anything, unless sumone steps in my way and bothers me with loads of crap. I really now hate being expected of being a role model. WHAT. You want us to be high-sloped nerds AKA COUNCILLORS?? Yes, I want to organise events, discuss and stuff. But with You ard, it totally sucks. And Who the hell in MOE made such a rule. Long hair doesnt necessary mean you are some gangster or some thug or sth rite, WHAT? Spoils sch reputation? That means all the Poly schools are gangsta schs la issit?. It's FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION, and hell, it's ART FOR GOD'S SAKE. And dumb, if there is this no-long-hair-for-boys rule, yes, it is alright for girls with long hair, im absolutely fine with that, but not BOTCHES who WAX their hair and abusing the its-ok-for-girls-to-have-long-hair rule. These SR 'girls' wax their hair into long boyish hairstyles, and the hairstyles these 'girls' wax into, are meant for boys/lesbos, not girls. damn gender discrimination? How bout i be gay so i can have long hair FTW. I should have gone to a Polytechic! They know we NS gonna cut botak hair alr why cant let us freaking enjoy abit. See other countries, like Canada, who gives a sht about hairstyle man. Agn, i regreted coming to a JC. And Role models, do the rest of the student population even care abt us trying so hard to be role models? they wud rather mind their own business. Now I've cut my hair not because they asked me to, it's my conscience, which is 'cos of this irritating 'you-are-being-watched' feeling. Even if they see us with nerdy kuku hair, will they(long hair ppl) like follow us and cut nerdy kuku hair??? NO RIGHT. ONLY STupid no IQ and EQ DUMBOS do that. And we are even expected to pass with flying colors~ cos we are ROLE MODELS, so the student population will look upon us as role models and study hard oso..FTW, who said leaders must be totally smart? Pass all the test summore. Councillors can't play PSP in the sch premises issit? must study all the time so that we can do well for the test cos we are supposed to be freaking role models? and if we dont do well we surely get scolded la, or maybe not scolded..., but get owned by sacarsm. I wanna be a normal human, a normal student, regret being a puppet, a DOG. I said puppet and Dog is becos of u. W/o u, being a councilor is a privilege. And wad's wrong with pink shoelaces, its a mini trend, and not a gangmember-must-have thing. Im gonna buy new shoes alr so im not gonna wear it agn. HAPPY RIGHT, U OWNED ME. Talk abt role models. And i seriously, almost had enuff of ur attitude during the CTC. it doesnt make u fierce and respected. at least the others are more open, and they do not show black faces all the time. it makes u ugly. I tried so hard, did so much, even faced my fears of public speaking and all jus to be in council and thanks this is wad i've got - my present, which turns out to be a load of crap. And I bet all the elections are rigged.So Damn obvious. Only losers rigg/undermine votes. Why dont you show us the number of votes each of the elects got? Y keep it confidential? ANNOUNCE IT LA

Anw I shud really blame myself too, I brought this upon myself. Yong Khoon made the right choice. I really envy him. Hell i dun want a nice testimonial alr, i dun even care now. I wud now rather choose to get lots of acne in canoeing (dirty) rather than SRJC council. It's not because of the rest of the councillors or TAs, it's you. And for God's sake, this is only SRJC, not VJC or TJC or RJC or ACJC or even SAJC. SRJC's just one of the last few bottom JCs, so, don't expect too much out of this srjc council. I really hope that the new TAs will make a better life for us. PLEASE, DON'T FOLLOW THE 'EXPERIENCED' ONES AND MAKE IT WORST. Thought the rules will be much more flexible and not strict, but it turns out that srjc is worst, their rules are dead cold and hard, unlike VJC, SAJC, or even NYJC which I at first intended to go to. The only good thing abt srjc are the good and devoted active young teachers, with some exceptions. And the Principal. But.....definitely not you, u spoil it.

Yes, dats all. I'm terribly frustrated. Someone help me. I cant stand it any longer alr. Either I bear wif it silently, or i explode like a bomb and destroy everything in my way.

Life sucks~ :/

Crap, my knee hurts bad, lucky my dad knows how to handle it, or else I will have to cab/walk to nearby physician! T_T Hope the pain goes away asap...sigh, cant even walk properly :(
...maybe i fell down my bed last night? :(

'Cos of that, decided to rest, so gave the tea session and hanging out with frnds a MISS. :( My right knee's bandaged now...so sad, hahas. :/ And woo yay thx to Rosken moisturiser, my skin's not dry anymore, *celebrates* XD

But, sigh, great my psp's half-spoilt, i can still play vids and songs, but the display screen, the umd lens, 'home' button, are faulty...and coupled with some other funny problems which makes my game lag, it is crazy.
And the repairs cost up to 150+..., so must as well get a new one. :/ 'cos i really nid it man!! I wanna play Final Fantasy IX on PSP! and I miss Monster Hunter Portable 2nd G~ T_T

LoL, just came home from Hougang Plaza. Today was both stress :/ and fun! :D

Chemistry test today was quite easy, started with Section B, and finished Section A in just 10 minutes. Sigh, I hope for a C...at least got some improvement from the D's I got from the previous lecture tests :/ Hey lets look on the bright side, how we fared for this MYE doesn't prove much. This SHOULD be a wake up call for us to stop slacking, and to start working hard, and make sure I don't 'zZz' during lectures! *_*

So aft the test in e super cold freezin' hall, went to buy bbtea slacked at the playground wif frnds, den went home. Wah reached home at ard 12.10pm, and I gotta reach Vivo agn, at 12.30. -_-, obviously I couldn't. Lol had the temptation to play abit of dota...but sigh, dont wanna let my classmates wait any longer even though i'll be late, so bathed and rushed off ;)

So reached Vivo, wow for movie: Get Smart...freaking hilarious!!! Laughed till my jaws ache lah.
JOKER. Next movies to watch: Hancock! Journey to the centre of the earth, Mummy tomb of dragon king, Dark Knight, Dont mess with Zohan and more weeeeeeeeee!

So after movie slacked ard Vivo, went to Pet Safari, wow the dogs, hamsters, and puppies damn cute. ^_^
So ate at Kopitiam, hahas and phew finally so tired can go home alr. But suddenly, 'Hey want go play pool?

-_-

So we went to Hougang Plaza, hit some balls with sticks (L0L) bought some donuts too...omg, jus couldn't resist my desire for sweet stuff!!

Lol played till 11.30 and went home, yes, here blogging, later play dota...and practise for tml's KBOX!!! XDXDXD

Ok gtg now bye!

Sigh...again. Yesterday's Chinese was a real killer! Omg lah they expect us to finish writing/answering so many questions! ;( nvrmind abt MT, -_-. So aft the scribbling test, went SAC agn to study math! Felt tired agn aft 'trying' to memorise some formulae, so I went into my cozy world of dreams ;) But soon my dreams turned back to reality, the stress-free, burden-free feeling was gone and the MYE thing struck me hard (shit MATH!) ;(

Sigh, math. Got 3-4 qns halfway done and the last qn part 2 undone. Sigh, maybe I can safely hope for at least a C? :/

And today~ is Physics! No joke, this phyiscs test is hard, sure U. Shouldn't even have chosen Physics in the first place...sigh. I dropped physics during sec 4 and now I'm taking H2 Physics in JC!! This is wad I call SUICIDAL.

Okie gotta go own the Chem ppr tml, been studyin' hard for it ;O hope I get a B or C. Or else I'm withdrawing to Poly nxt yr. >;( Ah omg my skin condition is like so dry now, and its...nvm. Gotta buy moisturisers tml! SOS - Save our Skin!!

Woots~ revamped my blog agn!

GG, MYE.

Sigh man, today is GP and Econs.

Gp? Well i think i've written quite fine, got some points blah blah, just hope i'll pass that...and

Econs hmm...


I KNOW NOTHING ABT MARKET FAILURE!!

And today aft the shity tests went to sac study maths, but i slept mostly through out 'cos I was like so tired...slept at ard 2.30am last night (GP!!). So nxt took bus to my good-ole Victoria School ;), to help my ex-classmate/neighbour :) return some impt keys to the teacher cos he couldn't make it today.hahas. And nxt went to Parkway Parade...got my haircut.



EMO *CRAP LA MY HAIR SO SHORT NOW* EMO

And tml is Chinese and MATHEMATICS!!!

But a sigh of relief, heard that the % for MYE in Promos is only around te size of this: .

All the lecture tests, class participation, homework, etc and MYE = 20% of promos

HA!~

SSSSSiiiiiiiiiiiiAAAAAAAAnnnnnnnn, 1 more day till MYE:

Monday: GP and Econs
Tuesday: Chinese LUCKY no composition writing ;) and Maths
Wednesday: Physics
Thursday: Chemistry

OhmyGod, I haven't even started on GP yet, and time is like, running out? Well, I decided to just read through a few essays from Aspire, and take the risk, and just read the marriage topic, that's all. :/ And for Econs, same, my interest in it is like 1%? But nvrtheless, still got read thru, and just memorise the definitions and graphs! :O

Study Maths!!

Ah yes, lucky Chinese no composition, otherwise I've been screwed!! LoL, erm chinese seems fine, just have to keep a clear and focused mind so that I will know what I'm doing during the test. =) And now, gg, maths. I'm so gonna recap on every chapter manz, Partial Fractions ok, Binomal ok, Trigo so-so, Graphs so-so, APGP and Summation of Series...BAD, I think I'll just memorise the steps, formulae, and wish myself good luck. :/

Study Physics and Chemistry!!

Ok...Physics...comfirm fail. But I still hope that I can pass it, studied much already, but can't get those things into my head. Just hope to pass it. Just rmb all the formulae!!

Study Chemistry!!

Ah, Chemistry. I wanna get at least a B for it, put in alot of effort in it over the past few weeks, sacrificed physics time for it :X hahas. So agn, just memorise the formulae, and especially the shapes and angles and steps in Chem Bonding! omg and another hard one, The Gaseous State/Partial Pressure GOOD LUCK.

Study NOTHING!

Ok, enough of my nonsense, now today, in the city of townsville, went school today, studied some maths with gab, val, cm, bexx, shi hui, and mr lau. Did some APGP qns, and hah Mr lau said i only needed to comb my hair, but i good boy, told him i gonna cut today, which i eventually didnt have the time to. So aft studying for "awhile", we decided to pack up and head for the bubbletea shop, and I actually dared to eat otah and drink the peach milktea. Opps Sorry couldn't resist the temptation!!

Anw, as long as I brush my teeth, I should be ok ;) So nxt went to Hougang Mall, bought a battery-operated toothbrush, face-wash and crap speaking of face wash, recently an acne outbreak occurred, its very depressing, and when you look at the mirror everyday and u see dots on your face, don't feel like going out, 'cos you've lost the confidence etc. It's like a metrosexual's worst nightmare. LOL. Sigh. I need Accutane (Vitamin A). =) Clears 'em in a few days! 101% effective, but expensive. (costed me $180 per month. T_T ) Ah nvm abt that. So I bought all the stuffs, and headed home..yeah I played games for "awhile", and now I'm blogging, and going to study some maths next till my eyes give up. :O

Oh yea, aft MYE gotta go VSXC training soon, i really miss the running trainings, so aft MYE, VSXC '07's gonna hang out soon! VSXC '07 is missed! Run, run, run~ = FUN

And yay im so glad that the pain in my teeth is going away, I wanna EAT EVERYTHING!! :d Because of braces I've been 'starving' lah, I really miss sweet stuff man, omg and I just satisfied myself with some today lol. opps! =X

And uh, ok say early good bye to my hair, 'cos they're gonna get cut tml. And to me!! BYE!

...

...

...I cant bite...

...I cant eat my favourite things...

...

...no carbonated drinks, no crunchy stuff, no hard stuff, no sugary stuff.

...no coke, no chewy junior, no munchy donuts, no delifrance, no jack's place, no breadtalk, no mcdonald's, no kfc, no subway, no burger king, no choco milk, no oreo, no milo. T_T

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...

...

...For 2 years,

...Porridge, fruit juice...and soft stuff only. sigh.

T_T

I want sweet

...

...and it's gonna hurt for the next 2 weeks. Thomas, good luck man...

ah crap less than one week left till MYE. i hate this. Did you notice my blog posts get shorter and shorter every time? ALL BECOS OF MYE.

BYE. =O

haha before it's 12 am midnight I shall wish all Fathers a...

...HAPPY FATHERS' DAY!!!

To all the fathers in the world: You are loved! :D


Ah felt real bad, was sick this whole week and i actually almost forgot that today was June 15! and sorry, i was too sick to get my dad something. =( nvm my dad's in an all-smiles mood today.

So as usual, stayed at home agn, played hard, studied hard! (maybe not) =O My fever's gettin worst and Wed's my braces day omg I getting the creeeps. June Hols is boring lah. Dont even call it June Hols, call it something like June Studying Period. I miss school. OMG i couldn't believe i actually saidtyped dat =S lalalala bye mug chem agn! really, seriously, truely, inevitably, certainly, unluckily, MYE is COMING and TIME is running out! =X study..study..study..y did i go a JC. :( aft JC still got NS!! Besides being near the equator, I hate SG on this one

So gtg now! bye sepians! =O

BLOG IS ART weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

ReVamPed BloG, made it myself...with IRON MAN as the theme!! Really Iron Man is the best movie ever made, Best movie in America!! of cos the rest of the world too uh! ;) So cool it made me drool haha. =P well not really drool, as in my mouth open wide. yea haha =D

ok im so gonna bathe agn, thanks to global warming im sweating agn. aft bathing im so gonna turn on the aircon and start my muggin'. :P seriously is the Earth dying? Y izzit so hot ard 'ere. =( The worst thing abt Singapore is that she's located at the equator manz. Wait. Maybe im jus having a fever. -_- I need a rest! But MYE is like sprinting towards me, ready to knock me out?? X(

Im so gonna study hard aft MYE, cos it will surely be a wakeup call fer me -_-. I know there's no time left. MYE is gonna EAT me up...ouch.

June Hols? i doubt so. :/

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Today nth much except mugging chemistry...and blogging of cos! ;D

Really tired out now, but still gotta finish study chemistry redox! Well im kinda the self study type, so i seldom ask teachers for consultation sessions...so ya im a solo'er =PP Lecture Books and worksheets are my best frnds!! =D Oh and Alan take really good care of yourself! ;D Everythings gonna be fine! ;)

Ah i tink i shud really get a new pair of shoess :) I'm a NIKE fan, last time went to Orchard and looked ard in the nike shop there and hmm saw two which look quite nice, but duno which one to get :/ haha. Tell mE!! X-)

Nike Court Force!

Okayy, really got no time to continue blogging now, gotta go peeps! Bye! :D

At the void deck outside SRJC!!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, love blogging + dinner =D!!. Today's great, really, with the sense of achievement of completing the Student Council Investiture rehersals. Was acutally sick in the morning today, didnt wanna come, but omg this rehersal is so impt, so i jus grabbed a jacket, in case I feel cold later, which was wad i felt for the whole day. Wow, and had Mcdonald's delivery for lunch, McChicken EVM + My Favourite Double CheesooooBARGAR!! XDXD, but due to my 'tooth ache' didnt eat the fries, 'cos they are like so cold, and hard - hurts. ouch. :/ So aft that we learnt to sing the Council Song, and some others. Wow, really enjoyed the singing!!!! Finally one of my fav hobbies (singing), paid off lol, but lol really like the chorus and ahh the other stanzas =)))!

So later when everything ended, BUBBLETEA TIME. So we all went to buy, had a chat/gossip, and later joined the rest at the playground, talk talk agn. Slept for awhile there while the rest chit chatted GOSSIP LIKE FREE. LOL haha so blah blah dats all for the day and went home

And did i tell you i really like Japanese songs now?, really fell in love wif JAP!! Hmm although i duno wad they mean, but the songs, especially the vocals really sound super nice! Really hope i can find time, maybe dec hols to learn that fun language! and go Japan too! And thanks to SuG, i really wanna learn to play the electric guitar, so nice and cool, agn, dec hols!! mate mate!! Maybe I shud save for one now! Until I get one, I'll find frnds who know how to play it. TEACH ME! XD So, dats all, Sayonara!

Rmb, you are still the sweetest girl and cutest girl that I've ever met!
And, You'll still be that sweet, gentle and pretty girl in my heart!
Nature will definitely bring us the best path :)
Takecare. :)

I've changed alot, for the better,
Couldn't imagine how lifeless my life would have been if I never known you.

Thanks, you were my motivation too :)

At Simei Eastpoint BK :)

Got up at 12.30 today, when my alarm clock went off at around 1030. Im such a pig. =( sigh. got maths lesson at 1330hrs! =/ so quickly got up, prepared and went off to school, luckily the bus trip got a green wave, or else i wud have been so late :D and guess wad, it hurts, my teeth every single tooth hurts now, sigh. So today had maths lesson, and later aft that we folded some paper cranes and some other fluffy stuff put em into a box and i used some colored glitter glue, wrote/drew the name: GUO QIANG. =D haha yea todae went to visit Guo Qiang, see how he was @ Changi Hospital, and thank God he was alrite, jus felt giddy only, and hey he's gonna get discharged soon! =) omg the tissue in the hospital is so special unlike the ones found in public...lol. so we like had a talk wif him, see whether he's ok anot, and yea off we went (me valerie gabriel jon cheeming bexx) to BK AGAIN, then bexx broke off cos she had dinner haha. BK, 3 times in a row, same meal BK mushroom swiss meal, upsize, change fries to onion rings and another chocolate heshie sundae pie, and sprite. =X i tink im getting fat. lolz. pretty bad day for me, cos i m falling sick, with cold/sneezing and 'water' just flowed out of my nostrils..OMG terribLE feeling. i tink its sinus, but i tot sinus happens only when we wake up/ ard morning, and not in the evening? lol. nvm abt that, altho its still irritating me, and my nose is kinda blocked now. SIGH. =O cold + 'tooth ache' = pain and irritating feeling. Guess i'll have to sleep as soon as possible after blogging, i really need a break - maybe its 'cos of stress. :/ and the most pissing moment of the day - stupid dota match. MY WORST DOTA GAME, the reason why i sound so dull now. nvm abt that agn, i shan't share my sadness. Lol. ok gtg!

I will always be there for you, that is, if you give me the chance to.
So, should I go on waiting for that chance, and hope that it will come one day?
Or, am I even, given the chance to wait in the first place?
Or you don't care at all?
Or maybe I'm really not good enough?

So, wouldn't it be better if I had given up waiting, which was the last time when I said hurtful things?
I really love you, but, this 3rd party feeling is killing me , I sometimes feel avoided, jealous and misunderstood.
If you are scared of hrtbrks, then you've already already broken mine.

Am I really halucinating? :/
Don't tell me there are better ones out there, 'cos if there really is, I won't be doing all this, agn.
You, are not the lousiest tree in the forest, and
don't, be so unconfident of yourself, jst believe in yourself
OR, are you are dwelling over the past?
I think I shan't disturb you then, so
I will try, to let go, since I think I'm (could be) waiting for nothing,
'cos I don't get any assurance that I can continue waiting, for you, for your love.

I dnt know, what can i ever do, to make you see how impt you are to me, but
I've tried, but maybe not hard enough? I dnt knw.
I'm not the only one for you, but you are the only one for me. Agn, what can i ever do to make you see.

Maybe I should not even have let you know my feelings. Maybe I should have just kept it. We could have been good frnds who can communicate better, or maybe EVEN smile when we see each other, or even say a simple 'Hello'. Now, even a simple smile/greeting from you makes my day, or even btr, a small conversation, makes my week. I'll always be the one at fault for all that has happened, be'cos I started all this. So dnt ever worry.

But the last few PAE days were great. Regretted behaving like some emo idiot.
But what has happened, has happened. Wrong start, everything screwed up. I've lost completely, my chance.

Ever since you were in Draco b4 PAE - Your sweet smile which i saw from the edge of my vision, when the teacher Ms Liu checked my hair. I remember. ;) sitting beside me in the hall, you were.

And 23 Feb '08 will always be the best day I've ever had.

I am willing to wait for you forever. please, let me wait
If you don't want, just tell me off straight in my face, of cos I will be uber sad, but only for a little while, and pooof, it'll be over, and you can continue living your life, happily, a load off your mind.

PEACE OUT.

zilian abit before going Toa Payoh NTUC Denticare...Greg I like ur camwhoring disease! :D

Ahh! omg today just got some Xray (I hate the radioactive sign), wah 1st time i saw the 'inside' of my head, with bones, teeth and all and MY GOD, 4 wisdom tooth how unlucky is that, im so gonna suffer like hell. And the worst part, is the moulding - dentist (Dr Susan Boey :D ) took pics of my teeth, and asked me to bite some minty flavoured mould. Wah scary, Dr Sus had 8 seperators inserted in between some of my upper and lower teeth, and like wad the Dr Sus said, its better to be uncomfortable now than uncomfortable after putting on the braces, so oh well hahas, it doesnt hurt that much anyway, in fact, it only aches abit =X. and ha. OH MY GOD 18th June is the DAY, I and Alan, offically will be putting braces =S ohh god, im scared! Officially 18th June we'll be eating only porridge and drinking water for damn long. =(

So aft xray and moulding went to PS wif that Alan agn, watched KungFu Panda...and omy, Funny but the storyline is so predictable, it somehow gets a little boring. And omg didnt know Jackie Chan acted as the voice for the Monkey, until I found out during the credits part...and guess who acted the voice for the Panda? Jack Black!!! OMG. I would say this movie is ok, really funny, and yea, gotta revise econs now, got maths lesson at 1.30pm tml, and council meeting the day after. Sigh, I need to rest!

I'm sorry to have disturbed you, I (think I) jst realised what you were going thru all this while.

Wah today stayed at home all day agn! and tml gotta got for xray wif alan, maybe going to watch Kungfu Panda haha! omg havent really started my GP essay yet (due on monday 10am T_T) feelin really thirsty now...wahh...im tired...i need motivation, i really gotta put aside all emotional stuff...and concentrate on revision..or else i really wont make it pass MYE...


All this, all that, is tiring. wah im beat =/

I want a break

i'm doing this thanks to Sam, haha.


Instructions: Replace one question from below and replace it with your own.


1. What's your favourite food?
*Tummy complains: THOMAS I WANT $10 WORTH OF MCDONALD's DOUBLE CHEESEBURGERS!


2. What is the one thing you would change if you had a chance to go back into the past?
- I shouldn't have told her my feelings. Should have kept it hiden within me


3. What's going to happen tomorrow?
- Dental Xray for Braces wif Alan =) =D maybe get a pair of new shoes too? XD


4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?
- Depends. But most of the time, I'll just get irritated, which will go off in a few minutes.


5. When do you wish to die?
- I want my AEGIS


6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Yup =D I hope it does, for me.


7. How long will you wait for your love?
- Forever. But I need assurance, so that I know I'm not waiting for nothing.


8. Do you believe in eternal love?
- YES. I believe.


9. Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
- Wad.? I hope not. =/


10. Where is your favourite holiday destination?
- Anywhere as long as it with loved ones in my lifetime


11. Describe your other half?
- Dnt have a gf.


12. What feelings do you hate most?
- Feeling of being avoided. Being misunderstood.


13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- Frnds are impt. Better to make frnds than enemies right?


14. What are you looking forward to in the upcoming weeks?
- MuGGing. =D


15. The most important thing in your life?
- My family and friends.


16. What makes you happy?
- When everything goes fine, and also when my wishes come true.


17. Do you find life meaningless?
- No. Life is exciting, with those ups and downs =)


18. Have you ever loved someone?
- Yes, and will continue to


19. List one thing that you are scared of.
- Losing my loved ones, and my hope dashed.


20. What's your greatest wish?
- World Peace. And to be with that someone who is very important to me


21. What if one of your loves betray you?
- Move on, but it'll take a long time to heal. But definitely not suicidal.


Tag 7 people, list them out at the end of the post.
Notify them in their chatterbox that they have been tagged:
1. Valerie Yeo
2. Gregory
3. Jason
4. Daniel
5. Jovien
6. Kwok Cheung
7. Han Hao

We are like South Poles which always repel each other, we cant talk, communicate, interact etc, there is always a repelling force in between us.

The only solution is to put a metal rod in between us, and we will attract.


This metal rod is this simple little thing called 'Love'.

.

omg! jus woke up - its alr 4pm! good afternn! =O yawnz..homework time! bye hha shall update soon on todae =)) Vi Vi Vi!

Hmm lets say today is my first day of mugging...so finished revising partial fractions, so tml binomal next!

and maybe more...lets all do well for MYE! at least a B!

ok im off to study byess

Take your time. If we are not fated to be, it's not, and you don't have to force urself either. And, thanks for everything

.


Hhahas. heres a cute SuG MV, Vi-Vi-Vi!


Enjoy!

Bye hahas!

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you can hold on to me, 'cos i won't let you go

Finally Camp Aspire is over. It was quite fun, but quite tiring (of cos) at times, but still knowing that my friends are also going thru the same thing, it kept me going on =) thx guys =D so aft the camp aspire, went to MCDONALDS wif John and Alan, yeah finally we can have a nice meal aft 2+ dumb days of spicy cold food. ate till my stomach got ard 96% full, hahas heavenly!

Day 1: hmm supposed to reach sch at 6.45am for council briefing, but woke up at 620! lucky got my daddy to send me there, but still reached at ard 7, lucky mr lau (who was there) didnt say anything and luckily i wasnt the last one haha! So aft the council briefing, it all began =O ~~ lol the first day was quite ok, got into our groups which were so randomly chosen...starting wasnt quite bonded wif the rest, cos im the type who really nids quite some time to adapt to new comapny of ppl. =D so first we had a scavanger hunt, den later had Amazing Race around SG, fun la, but tiring cos i was the IC of the grp so had to manage many stuff, which was really tough. lemme try to name all my grp members haha if i can rmb the name and spelling =/ it's: samantha, valerie, shawn, leslie, john, leon, jocelyn, jiaqi, edwin, guoren, nicholas, timothy, jessica, louisa, the rest really cant rmb sorry! =(( wah oso timothy and shawn's breakdancing was superb manz! outside esplanade summmore! And the Singapore flyer's super big and wah one day i must really go there at least once in my life!

Day 2: =) Had a sea expedition, kayaking frm pasir ris park all the way to pulau ubin! and worst thing is that the wave current is against us omg, me and alan like struggled all the way, going the wrong direction all the time but i think this is still the best part of the day weeeeeeeeeee.
Woah when we finally reached pulau ubin, its a nice place, like thailand. Cos the way the villagers there live, and how their houses/shops look like, really reminds me of chiang mai =) Den later omg the campfire was like so screwed up cos of time constraint, lack of resources etc, but really it was quite impressive in the end. den later slept in the hut...and luckily the DARE was interupted by mr yong! otherwise i would get owned by leslie alr when i was sleeping =X


Day 3: woohoo, last day of camp! yay! and the most fun day of the camp i must say! so early in the morning had land expedition, which last ard 3+hrs trekking ard pulau ubin - learn many things, bonded lots, had fun, but my faith and hope decreased...i dnt know what to say.

So went back to Singapore aft everything ended - finally CIVILISATION! =DD
miss singapore, and of cos HOME lots! when the camp finally came to an end, went out and den home and poooooooooooofffff here blogging.

exhausted by the camp, wif aches and bites here and dere, i think i twisted my neck abit, hurts now. really gotta slp soon and start studying and do my gp essay tml. ok gd bye i gotta go!

Yun Jia you jus successful promoted SuG lol they damn nice la. the hair all damn nice. actually got to pack stuff for camp. but watched other SuG's vids until now. omg. so late alr 1am alrdy. haha PROMOTING SUG HERE TOO!



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Japs are so cool lol =)

Camp Expire...looking forward............for it to be over as soon as possible.

haha, so lets see: Today pretty screwed up day, em forgot abt the GCE interview agn, so sigh, no more Hong Kong, but nvrm hahas. maybe I can join VSXC in their Chiang Mai trip this Dec =DDD Later aft sch went out wif Alan Daphne Rohith Daniel Ibrahim and Yong Khoon at compass point, looked at some laptops, haiz hope i can get another VAIO preferbly Aroma Black colored =). woah saw a cool movie trailer in one of the 'laptops' - Hancock some bloody imba human wif superhuman strength and omg he just threw a whale into the sea lol. and he can fly. O_O looks cool, he wasnt even scratched when a train just ran thru him, instead there's a big hole in the middle of the train lol. ahh enuff. but its a must watch! 2 July 08! Lol Yong Khoon unlucky uh...wah seh..ur yoshinoya meal sad. but i feel sorry for you =/ and luckily the atm machine eject ur posb card...or else..wah. so haiz, back to my main disappointment, CAMP ASPIRE Expire. Havent even packed a single thing yet. feeling abit sick. but got VIP going! how can i not go! zZz. And i must really bring as little stuff as possible man, otherwise i''ll have to suffer like during the CTC agn. Woah heard that tml there'll be amazing race @ suntec...lol sounds cool, and really wonder wad we'll be doing dere, hahas =D. and later ah the hard part - kayaking all the way frm pasir ris park to pulau ubin omg. hope this one's not true and frm an unreliable source manz. zZz. OMG, and i havent even started memorising my script for the campfire skit...stress. REALLY WANT IT TO END.

OK...GTG SUFFER FOR THE NEXT 3 DAYS...hope it'll be fun dere...

A smile a day keeps my emoness away =))

ok YTD:

Weeeeeeeeeeeee. lol 1 more day to camp aspire. ain't looking forward to it. Lol feeling kinda traumatised cos of wad we've all been thru during the CTC. sigh, really want to get it over and done with =/. Today's kinda fun, lol, talk talk talk, do some work, physics, den econs tutorial (copying session), hand really hurt alot. and yay thought there's gonna be nth more aft dat...,den my nightmare turned into reality, really got council rehearsal, and omg tot i got replaced by sumone else for my skit, but in the end i had to do it agn, sigh, agn agn, why was i so enthu agn that time?? oh wells so acted out in the skit several times, haha and it was fun watching all the rest practising their cheers and campfire songs =DD and omg ROHITH AKA SHAKIRA HAIR-RAISING voice and sCArY. i get the creeps -_- den later got pw...do do do, think think, discuss discuss, split job...consult consult...and tml have to reach sch at 8am to do PW >;(

Ok haha ah so later aft pw went to Jack's Place @ Parkway Parade, dined wif my family ohh nice and yummy! and dats not all....today is actually my mummy's bdae!!! haha really happy =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!

Lols so aft headed home to do some pw, and den blogged, listened to songs, relaxed until now - 3 am. wooo time to slp. Cos tml I planning to visit VSXC (VICTORIA SCHOOL CROSS COUNTRY) miss sheikha, mr ho(not sure), mr Tan(not sure too) and all juniors and ex-teammates , pals, comrades!! Cant wait! tml at 5pm at macritchie reservoir!!

You have beautiful eyes

I CAN'T STUDY MUCH BECAUSE OF PROJECT WORK!! CRAP!!

WEE 1S04 FLH HAHA

RANDOM

BORED

disgusting lol

Had nothing better to do haha.

hmm today basically stayed at home agn, rushing thru pw...as i said earlier, cant study much cos really had lots of research. And i and my grp even had to see ms yeo tml 7 am @ SAC ;<>

oh yea, gotta consult teachers and mug once holiday starts! gotta be optimistic! at least a B for each sub, altho i know i'll do badly for econs ;( opps pessimistic agn...sigh. omg, really loved this song and listened to it for e whole day...until now, which is like 3 am...wooo and i finally completed pw...but got some blanks here and dere..omg y am i the leader? why an i so enthusiastic dat time -_-. Chee ming can be leader? i be assistant leader can alrdy. =)

ahh how am i gonna wake up so early tml..left 2 more hours to slp and im still blogging..err..its not wasting time ok..blogging is impt everydae =DD so yea looking forward to the june hols mugging + fun.

okie gotta go. God Bless. especially you.

Maybe saying all the bad stuff was a good thing, it made me realise how impt u r 2 me.