Yes, sighing again.

Warning: I'm moody when I typed this post, so there are some things that are either out of point or totally makes sense.

HHHHHHHaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiZZZZZZZZZZZZ. I don't want Monday to come T_T, OK I'll tell you what's bothering me. My knee's case. Ya..my knee's injured, bandaged, it's not that serious but it really hurts when I walk. So i decided not to go for Principal Tea Session. My parents are always working, until e nite. And I have no idea where a physician/doctor or w/e u call it. But luckily my Dad knows how to 'treat' my knee, so ya now it's bandaged. But the freaking prob is now, 'cos i smsed the TAs and said I couldn't go, they wanted an MC on Monday, a freaking MC, when I had no choice but to give a parents' letter. My knee hurt abit the day before the tea session and the day it hurt the most was on the teasession day, cos i walked too much the day before. It's a strain which I got often when I was running in the vs cross country days, so ya nth much, but it just hurts went walking, and i cant bend my knee much. But all these prev cases, I wud just let it 'heal' naturally. I duno, im frustrated, its only a tea session...I know its an official council event and an MC is required. But if i give a parents letter, i know u will nag. The pain has almsot gone away now, but i'll still put on the bandage, FOR PROOF. damn it. I've nvr been to all those wad i call 'bone specialists' before, and I duno how to go? even if i decide to go, i think i'll take yrs to crawl there on that day? Ya so hell im giving a parents letter and i'll see how it goes. If don't accept parents' letter, fine, just mark me as 'Did not turn up PURPOSELY' la, U tink im scared? Conduct grade only what. Fair then fair lah, it's not as if its a death sentence liddat. ftw

And next is Council, bothered me hell lots. I really dislike this feeling, the kinda hypocritical and sacarstic feeling. Especially rats+nm. You cant and will nvr be a frndly person to me. Show black face/ultra strict face and attitude all the freaking time right?. It doesnt make you fierce. If i dun know u and i see u outside, u are jus some thing i dun even gif a damn about. Even if you want to be friendly, to me, I really feel that you are just sacarstic and 'hiding a knife behind your back'. Boring and everything's dry, with ur presence in council meetings - there's no fun at all, to me. You make the atmosphere freezing cold and everything u say to me is filled with sacarsm. I dun feel happy, and speaking of that, now i realise being in the council gives me the feeling of being watched with a keen eye. Luckily im not elected for exco, or else this feeling will be worst. This feeling pressurises me, it stresses me, it makes me frustrated, and my every wrong actions, are 'exposed' to the rest in a sacarstic manner and the person gave me a quick 'ha i owned u' kind of stare. I know I fell asleep, i know i DOODLED during the Event-management seminar. For the sleeping part, you think i wanted that? u tink we are all humans who can sleep early? WHAT? Blame myself on my time management? JC's life's all abt sudying and no fun? I tink u shud get a life seriously. I wud rather u scold me, then show me ur sacarsm skills. I know ur sacarsm skills maximum level alr la, i congratulate u for getting the [Outstanding Sacarstic Skills Award]. Lucky there's only 1+ yrs left to go, or maybe less than half a yr 'cos of poly. I wanna get out asap. Luckily, frnds in council & classmates kept me going. But still the time for regret has come. I 'quited' canoeing wasnt because it was tiring, but dirty. Didnt join track cos i had enuff of it during my secondary sch days. So since most PAE frens are in council, and the idea of organising all those events, rocks, so i joined Council, without considering the harmful effects. I really dislike being always aware of my actions and especially my attire, I've no prob with my uniform, but my hair i want it long(abv average), i swear i'll nvr cut it as short agn. WHAT. see me with long hair jealous? or does it piss u off? And if u see me with outrageous hairstyles pls come and tell/scold me, dont just notice from behind and tell urself 'Thomas u r owned, ur conduct grade is gonna suffer' or sth. Damn. I seriously dont care alr, I know councilors must always keep in check of their attire, but sorry, its my habit - i can't live with high slope and no fringe, etc. I dun care abt wad council conduct alr, i cud have joined some other sports cca and live life stressfree, with no 'u are being watched' feeling and long fringe and tail :). So now im just gonna give that parent's letter and i won't give a damn abt anything, unless sumone steps in my way and bothers me with loads of crap. I really now hate being expected of being a role model. WHAT. You want us to be high-sloped nerds AKA COUNCILLORS?? Yes, I want to organise events, discuss and stuff. But with You ard, it totally sucks. And Who the hell in MOE made such a rule. Long hair doesnt necessary mean you are some gangster or some thug or sth rite, WHAT? Spoils sch reputation? That means all the Poly schools are gangsta schs la issit?. It's FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION, and hell, it's ART FOR GOD'S SAKE. And dumb, if there is this no-long-hair-for-boys rule, yes, it is alright for girls with long hair, im absolutely fine with that, but not BOTCHES who WAX their hair and abusing the its-ok-for-girls-to-have-long-hair rule. These SR 'girls' wax their hair into long boyish hairstyles, and the hairstyles these 'girls' wax into, are meant for boys/lesbos, not girls. damn gender discrimination? How bout i be gay so i can have long hair FTW. I should have gone to a Polytechic! They know we NS gonna cut botak hair alr why cant let us freaking enjoy abit. See other countries, like Canada, who gives a sht about hairstyle man. Agn, i regreted coming to a JC. And Role models, do the rest of the student population even care abt us trying so hard to be role models? they wud rather mind their own business. Now I've cut my hair not because they asked me to, it's my conscience, which is 'cos of this irritating 'you-are-being-watched' feeling. Even if they see us with nerdy kuku hair, will they(long hair ppl) like follow us and cut nerdy kuku hair??? NO RIGHT. ONLY STupid no IQ and EQ DUMBOS do that. And we are even expected to pass with flying colors~ cos we are ROLE MODELS, so the student population will look upon us as role models and study hard oso..FTW, who said leaders must be totally smart? Pass all the test summore. Councillors can't play PSP in the sch premises issit? must study all the time so that we can do well for the test cos we are supposed to be freaking role models? and if we dont do well we surely get scolded la, or maybe not scolded..., but get owned by sacarsm. I wanna be a normal human, a normal student, regret being a puppet, a DOG. I said puppet and Dog is becos of u. W/o u, being a councilor is a privilege. And wad's wrong with pink shoelaces, its a mini trend, and not a gangmember-must-have thing. Im gonna buy new shoes alr so im not gonna wear it agn. HAPPY RIGHT, U OWNED ME. Talk abt role models. And i seriously, almost had enuff of ur attitude during the CTC. it doesnt make u fierce and respected. at least the others are more open, and they do not show black faces all the time. it makes u ugly. I tried so hard, did so much, even faced my fears of public speaking and all jus to be in council and thanks this is wad i've got - my present, which turns out to be a load of crap. And I bet all the elections are rigged.So Damn obvious. Only losers rigg/undermine votes. Why dont you show us the number of votes each of the elects got? Y keep it confidential? ANNOUNCE IT LA

Anw I shud really blame myself too, I brought this upon myself. Yong Khoon made the right choice. I really envy him. Hell i dun want a nice testimonial alr, i dun even care now. I wud now rather choose to get lots of acne in canoeing (dirty) rather than SRJC council. It's not because of the rest of the councillors or TAs, it's you. And for God's sake, this is only SRJC, not VJC or TJC or RJC or ACJC or even SAJC. SRJC's just one of the last few bottom JCs, so, don't expect too much out of this srjc council. I really hope that the new TAs will make a better life for us. PLEASE, DON'T FOLLOW THE 'EXPERIENCED' ONES AND MAKE IT WORST. Thought the rules will be much more flexible and not strict, but it turns out that srjc is worst, their rules are dead cold and hard, unlike VJC, SAJC, or even NYJC which I at first intended to go to. The only good thing abt srjc are the good and devoted active young teachers, with some exceptions. And the Principal. But.....definitely not you, u spoil it.

Yes, dats all. I'm terribly frustrated. Someone help me. I cant stand it any longer alr. Either I bear wif it silently, or i explode like a bomb and destroy everything in my way.

Life sucks~ :/