At Simei Eastpoint BK :)

Got up at 12.30 today, when my alarm clock went off at around 1030. Im such a pig. =( sigh. got maths lesson at 1330hrs! =/ so quickly got up, prepared and went off to school, luckily the bus trip got a green wave, or else i wud have been so late :D and guess wad, it hurts, my teeth every single tooth hurts now, sigh. So today had maths lesson, and later aft that we folded some paper cranes and some other fluffy stuff put em into a box and i used some colored glitter glue, wrote/drew the name: GUO QIANG. =D haha yea todae went to visit Guo Qiang, see how he was @ Changi Hospital, and thank God he was alrite, jus felt giddy only, and hey he's gonna get discharged soon! =) omg the tissue in the hospital is so special unlike the ones found in public...lol. so we like had a talk wif him, see whether he's ok anot, and yea off we went (me valerie gabriel jon cheeming bexx) to BK AGAIN, then bexx broke off cos she had dinner haha. BK, 3 times in a row, same meal BK mushroom swiss meal, upsize, change fries to onion rings and another chocolate heshie sundae pie, and sprite. =X i tink im getting fat. lolz. pretty bad day for me, cos i m falling sick, with cold/sneezing and 'water' just flowed out of my nostrils..OMG terribLE feeling. i tink its sinus, but i tot sinus happens only when we wake up/ ard morning, and not in the evening? lol. nvm abt that, altho its still irritating me, and my nose is kinda blocked now. SIGH. =O cold + 'tooth ache' = pain and irritating feeling. Guess i'll have to sleep as soon as possible after blogging, i really need a break - maybe its 'cos of stress. :/ and the most pissing moment of the day - stupid dota match. MY WORST DOTA GAME, the reason why i sound so dull now. nvm abt that agn, i shan't share my sadness. Lol. ok gtg!

I will always be there for you, that is, if you give me the chance to.
So, should I go on waiting for that chance, and hope that it will come one day?
Or, am I even, given the chance to wait in the first place?
Or you don't care at all?
Or maybe I'm really not good enough?

So, wouldn't it be better if I had given up waiting, which was the last time when I said hurtful things?
I really love you, but, this 3rd party feeling is killing me , I sometimes feel avoided, jealous and misunderstood.
If you are scared of hrtbrks, then you've already already broken mine.

Am I really halucinating? :/
Don't tell me there are better ones out there, 'cos if there really is, I won't be doing all this, agn.
You, are not the lousiest tree in the forest, and
don't, be so unconfident of yourself, jst believe in yourself
OR, are you are dwelling over the past?
I think I shan't disturb you then, so
I will try, to let go, since I think I'm (could be) waiting for nothing,
'cos I don't get any assurance that I can continue waiting, for you, for your love.

I dnt know, what can i ever do, to make you see how impt you are to me, but
I've tried, but maybe not hard enough? I dnt knw.
I'm not the only one for you, but you are the only one for me. Agn, what can i ever do to make you see.

Maybe I should not even have let you know my feelings. Maybe I should have just kept it. We could have been good frnds who can communicate better, or maybe EVEN smile when we see each other, or even say a simple 'Hello'. Now, even a simple smile/greeting from you makes my day, or even btr, a small conversation, makes my week. I'll always be the one at fault for all that has happened, be'cos I started all this. So dnt ever worry.

But the last few PAE days were great. Regretted behaving like some emo idiot.
But what has happened, has happened. Wrong start, everything screwed up. I've lost completely, my chance.

Ever since you were in Draco b4 PAE - Your sweet smile which i saw from the edge of my vision, when the teacher Ms Liu checked my hair. I remember. ;) sitting beside me in the hall, you were.

And 23 Feb '08 will always be the best day I've ever had.

I am willing to wait for you forever. please, let me wait
If you don't want, just tell me off straight in my face, of cos I will be uber sad, but only for a little while, and pooof, it'll be over, and you can continue living your life, happily, a load off your mind.

PEACE OUT.