tEcHnO-pOp <3

2008-09-28T01:15:00.001+08:00

shifted to livejournal! Weeee

2008-09-04T18:50:00.001+08:00

唐禹哲-只欠一句我爱你

你微微的笑温暖我心

让我有了冲劲动力

于是我又鼓起了勇气

决定要疯狂爱上你

千千万万的爱意等不及
凉风徐徐的提醒我和你

*只欠一句我爱你
没胆亲口告诉你
想要照顾你好好疼你

只差一句你答应
点头说你也愿意
和我在一起手牵着你
紧紧抱着你

盛夏的回忆在偷偷想起
你就是剩下的唯一
我站在这里用最真的心
想对你说请相信
我们之间距离

2008-08-19T02:00:00.000+08:00

MySpace Generators

Childhood Days

2008-08-11T03:31:00.004+08:00

Anyways, Best Anime EVER ^

AH gtg do gp, and econs/math/phy elearning! T_T

disintegrate

2008-08-09T00:01:00.010+08:00

some random photos for hougang ccc that day...=D

Cool. todays Thanksgiving concert was fantastic, but nth comes free in life...had some stupid econs makeup test @ 11am, LT1. was crapping all the way thru...cos i seriously know nth abt econs haha lmao man.

so aft test went sac slack..lucky maths test cancelled today man, or else die (braindead) ;) feeling damn emo this morn..duno why, maybe its 'cos...

Councillors have to wear the white aspire shirt. wa lao dumb man...so could'nt take it anymore..lucky i brought another t-shirt...hahas, ok, lets skip to the Thanksgivin concert =) really nice la, i didnt know the teachers were such talented performers =D very entertaining esp the tcher band la, i wanna be the vocals one day T_T dream~

so aft that went to kovan ate kfc wif joncmvalgab they all, lols they cant seem to stop laughing; hahas. xD

some things are better when left unmentioned, seriously.

Oh yea, almost forgot that today is National Day; Happi Bdae Singapore!

This is cute!

2008-08-04T00:52:00.003+08:00

This is cute =X

Btr off w/o you =l

2008-08-02T23:17:00.012+08:00

atleastucouldhavegivenmeareply;toclarifythingsoutandall;insteadoflettingmehangtherewaitingforareply;nvmlaiknowyoucantbebotheredanyway;nowwhatiwantisthatwecancalmthisthingdownandbenormalfrnds/committeemembers;isweari'llnvrlikeyouanymoreanddoallthosethingsagain;ivegivenupcompletely;idontlikeyouanymore;butthatdoesntmeanihateyou;iguessicangettooemotionalattimes;sosorryforallthetroublethen;enemiesorfriendsfromnowonwards;youdecide;imfinewithanything;iwilltakethisasrejection;thanksforgivingmeyourreply;hopenextimethingswillcalmdownasap;butifuaredeterminedtodetestmeforever;imfinewithit,butjusttoletyouknowimwillingtodowhateverittakestocalmthismatterdown;idonthateyouandihopeyoudonthateme;iregretforstartingallthis;itshuddenhavehappened;sorryforeverything;itwasalreadywrongrightfromthestart;

whyigotpissed;cos',toseemyeffortsseenaslies;sigh;itsafeelingyougetwhenateachertearsupyourhomeworkinfrontofyouwhenyoupassitup;whenyouworksohardtofinishit

theyarentlies;butnvm;nowivegivenup;sinceallmyeffortsareliestoyou;nvmalready

2008-08-01T23:23:00.008+08:00

dontplaywithmyfeelings;whodoyouthinkyouare;itsnotliesbutifyoureallythinksoitsnotmyprob;its'cosyoumademesufferinsilenceandgiveup;soi'vegivenup;youshouldbehappyabtit;wehaventevenstartedanythingyetsoplsstoptreatingthislikesomeimptthing;theresnopointgoingafteryouandgettinshitintheend;gaveyouallmyheartbutyoutrampleditlikesometrash;wantedtobefriendsagnbutitseemedlikeyoudontevenwannabefrnds;fine;ignoranceisbliss;idontevengiveadamnnowhaha;urwordsdunevenreflectinyouractionsandwhatswithgivingmethirdpartyfeelingsyouthinkfunizzit;meemo?fucknoman;studiesmoreimptanyway;idonthavetimetothinkabtthisdumbthing;nvmloifthisiswhatigetanddeserveidunmind;yougotppltodependonanyway;whateveritis;imnotgonnafkingcareanymore;whyshouldi;wastemytimeonyou;sacrificingmyconcentrationandmindonyouandalligetisyouavoidingmeandalltheotherstuff;nvmlordunlikemesayla;likeiwillgosuicideliddat;ratheryourejectmethanmakingmehangtherelikesomeidiot;menolikeyouanymoreandthatsitman;nothingmorefromme;complainlahsaywhatsgonnahappen?;cosweinthesamecomm;wanttalkornotitsuptoyou;itsnotmyprob;blahblah;andallthecrap;nowimhappyagn;imfree;noworries;cosuareouttamymind;butiwontmixpersonalstuffwithcouncil;itsalluptoyoutocommunicateifwehavecommitteediscussions;afterallthis;seriouslyivegotnolifeatall;duncomplaintoanybody;stopspreadingthings;what?;dontgetit?;searchyoursoulthen

lastpostaboutyou

Acne sucks

2008-07-27T18:46:00.003+08:00

I HATE ACNE!!!

wiLL RuN

2008-07-23T21:37:00.017+08:00

Damn tiring day today!!! Cramps here and dere, ouch man...its like im walking and suddenly i fall down in pain lol O_O

Ran 15 rounds today...argh omg im still unsatisfied...eeerrkk blame it on my ah-Q 精神...I have like minor blood disorder from those medicine and omg the doc advised me not to play tough sports la..cos i will get tired easily...and nvm i feel like a loser saying all these. =X nvm..shall go on..

Actually feeling quite guilty now...I'm not supposed to blog...aft wad Mr Lau's time management talk wif me and my mum...T_T but since i did so much for WR today...shall reward myself~

omg la today, dunno since when i've fallen in love with...

...writing love/romance chinese compos!!! lol...its like w/e the qn is...there still be some love thingy inside haha~ Wa lao, i was just listening to Jay Chou songs...and omg there's so many phrases i can use from those lyrics...and damn, i jus passed up a compo after will run...obviously its abt love too lol...and i could have added in a touching phrase into it if i had listen to his songs then T_T btw, i tink i like writing chinese compos; i want more. =X so fun to write lah. XD can make tcher cry i really HAPPY alr! XD

Example (conclusion): 心里的眼泪，模糊了视线，我已快看不见...

LoL.

So glad everything's fine now within my PW group. Yea bad things DO happen for the GREATER GOOD. Now we're better and cooperative (And Enthusiastic) than ever :) Im glad. Bad things DO happen for the greater good.

Well, nvm abt that, omg Physics SPA tml, and chem gaseous state quiz tml...oh my gosh! =X
and crap i still havent (duno how to) do Functions T_T, yea im a solo'er, i prefer studying myself rather than asking tchers for help, but wif exceptions like chem/phy tchers =P omg and i just rmb i bought $63 worth of assignment books...so..thats $120-$63= $57 left for my piggy @ home. T_T Omg haha and Happy bdae to Daniel and Geraldine; happy 17th!

And ytd @ NYNY was freaking yummy! and hilarious! omg. (Rohith/me/YK/Daniel) haha lols its like this...when we got the bill, price was $113.23...so we paid 113.25 exact, ending with a 5 cents...and duno who, but i tink it's me or smmone else, LOL NOO WAIT, it's Rohith!! haha. So basically he wrote on a piece of tissue ppr, "Keep the change =)" omg la laughed till my chest pain when he put the ppr into the bill...and waited for the 'unlucky' waitress to come...lol, btw the manager looks dam fierce...so when he got not-so-near to us we were like oh shit. HAHA. THRILLING and FUNNY. Especially when the waitress opened the thing...'wah so good keep the change smmore..calculate* O_O 2 cents'. LOL and bloody hell all PS me at the table! Lols, 'cos i gt so much to pack espec the $63-worth assignment books!
And omg the waitress told me 'thank you...and THANK YOU for the change' lol. Lmao'ed.

Anws really gotta continue doing WR now...BYE!

Snapped out of it, finally! :/

Guitar.

2008-07-20T00:06:00.007+08:00

Hmm...thx to my emoness/randomness/boredom; decided to come up with a design project for my dream electric...

photoshop'ed design, tryout

yea my when my imagination goes wild, I come up wif things like this haha;
Then...

Edited final dream design for guitar weeee~

omg... !

2008-07-17T23:40:00.010+08:00

OMG DAMN NICE

YYYAWwwwwNNnnn~ Actually wanted to sleep aft studying for tml's Circular Motion Test T_T..weee i had a sudden urge to blog ya. :D

Freakin emo day for me, until the last few moments of it ^^. Emotionally stressed up = Gastric Pains!! >.<

Plus MT listening Compre, wah stress. And omg we had to report at 2.30, and they actually asked us to rest first till 3pm before the LC starts -_-. And plus the radio 92.4 symphony playing all those goodnight melodies...YAWN man and when it started i was like damn groggy and dizzy la, how to concentrate. But nvrtheless, hyped up and pulled thru. Amusing the invigilator is; Flashed someone's OAS sheet in front of the whole class just to remind us to write our NRIC and stuff...and i was agn like...wthell...thx....RETARDED.

And so aft that went to do all the Post-Mye Physics qns...Hmm I'd say I've learnt some things...And yea thx everyone~ :DD
HAHs nice crumpler tempo trade yea. It feels kinda fun LAWL.~
And I'm such a Avenged Sevenfold, Synyster GAtes/Zacky Vengeance WANNABE! Oh yes, I can see guitars and possibly guitar lessons coming towards me from the future!! Cant wait! Fun Awaits me!! Hey val, gotta go bras basah asap!! T_T

And lastly, i just hate my econs tcher!!!! Thanks la last min tell us to complete the econs file and do 3 essays in like less than a week? OMG, and the consequence is FAIR conduct for term 3. Are u kidding?? What a backstabber manzz..sigh. But still all of us still passed up...but haha those essays were untouched/undone/not bothered.

Wooo really cant wait for Will Run, i dnno y, but i feel like running more than 10 km. Relive the memories and blood, sweat and tears in the days of VSXC!

OKie gtg sleeep~ TC all :DDD

Sleeping late causes Acne outbreaks; No Joke. :/

InVesTiTuRE

2008-07-15T22:37:00.012+08:00

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Investiture oveR!!!! Officially Councillors! XD

Next up, WILL RUN !!!

Will update more soon later, gotta do EoM! >.<

A Whole New World (LOVE singing this song! XD) Addicted~

I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

2008-07-12T19:16:00.007+08:00

21st...

Council!

Me and my pinner :/

Phew, damn tiring day. :O But worthwhile. Well anws went to sch at ard 10 plus in the morn, and so had investiture rehearsal all the way till ard 4pm i guess. And i had mcdonald's agn for lunch, heheh gonna have sore throat soon - eating all those fries :S Lol. Then omg the rehearsals is so repetitive, doing the same things over and over agn...its really tiring and the last one i was like strugglin' and sleepy 'cos the doc's medicine's made me so ddrroowwssyy. zZz :/
Aft everything went to bubbletea agn wif the other councillors, and just wanna say, cheer up Alan!~ :D Your sun will shine one day!

stupid braces.

2008-07-12T09:21:00.002+08:00

2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part

And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our last good-bye

That's something only love can do

2008-07-11T23:28:00.005+08:00

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee feeling quite relaxed..., 'cos its Friday!, which gives me the time to destress...phewww~ :) yayness :D

So today woah started with physics test...This test although i know i might fail, but i tink I've improved? 'Cos usually I couldnt even write anything during physics tests, but this time i did and i'd say it's quite ok. So yea I'll work harder ROAR ;O During lunch went to eat and bubbletea'ed, and relaxed at the playground, lol, high angle pearl shots!! XDXD and omg today I've really seen wad's ROFL like, when joshua saw Mr Wong and hrd someone say shaolin monk or smth, he literally laughed his ass off and Rofl'ed @ the playgrd. HAHAs. anw, aft that went for ectra maths lesson..and hey thx for being my lawyer, must win the case too! muahaahhaha~

And hmm today aft maths was bad too...wasted some money agn on taxi, cos i had to bring the black leather shoes for council investiture rehearsal which i 4gt to bring for the past few days, luckily i made it in time, bleah. ok, investiture rehearsal was alright, but stood for damn long and my back is like aching...lol, im old alr :) altho it ended qite late i'd say its quite fun aft all, im kinda enjoying it hahas. And i smtimes forgot to walk/turn/do smth cos its like omg stood/sat for so long, started staring into space, and day-dreaming when im suppose to walk/turn etc. lol. :0

Tired, so aft invest rehearsals! comes the best prt of the day~ Lol not really, hahahs. So went out to mac with Rohith and Alan, saw the president and president-in-law...LOL. Oh yea found out a damn big secret..sealing my lips 100%...and omg Yong Khoon is so damn pro, thanks to rohith, who told me that YK actually knew before I knew that...wah.

And omg pls dun call me emo la...sometimes it's cos i was just deep in thought, not emoing and feeling sad ok. haiyo -_- happy life, long life. Enjoy while u can ^^ omg randomness. Oh well. Well, is think of that someone all the time considered emo? den maybe i am, i dunno :0 I'm tired, i wanna sleep, maybe listen to some HAPPY music...and omg thx to fanglin, preeti and bob, whoever paid for the taxi ride home, thanks so so so so soooooooo muchie :) and lucky they didnt suck much things outta me abt the 21st -_- phew.

hey so that sums up 11 july 08! hah, really cant wait for 23 july for the Will Run, im so gonna enjoy it XDXDXD running makes me happy~ :) so gtg, time to sleep tight and takecare, especially you you you you and YOU.

The small bee waiting for its life's only flower to blossom

2008-07-09T20:54:00.000+08:00

thank you all.

2008-07-08T20:34:00.002+08:00

Thanks to Miss Au, for talking to me, sorting my priorites and all, so in the end, decided to stay in SRJC, to work hard and BUG the teachers, and get good grades! Now poly is like my last resort, cos i dun wanna retain, I wanna go to J2!! But resigned as a councillor, spoke to Mr Lau abt it aft the hope-i'll-pass maths test, when I told him I got 4 Us he's reaction was like "Holy shit...omg." LoL, and also told him that i must be realistic and practical, if cant cope with studies and council,t's best to let go and join a less time-consuming cca.

Heys, im so glad I can concentrate on my studies more! And truckloads of worries and stress off my mind! :) No need waste money on taxi...and my mum kinda agreed to buy me and learn electric guitar...! But she say wait...duno when can buy...sigh rawr!!!!! =O LOL. Hmm crap still gotta choose a new cca, maybe track or odac...hahas. Wah must really thank Miss Au, really emo'ed frm morning..until chem lesson. RAWR teacher consultation GOGO!! aiming all B's for Promos! >.<

2008-07-07T15:09:00.003+08:00

Feeling damn sad now. Sumthing's worrying me but i duno what.

God please guide me through this.

2008-07-07T01:09:00.002+08:00

And when I think of all the places I just don't belong
I've come to grips with life and realize this is going too far

I don't belong in SRJC, I gotta move on dear escape from this stress
'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from SRJC

This life of mine's not right
No pain or sign of time
So out of place don't wanna stay, I feel wrong and that's my sign
I've made up my mind

I don't belong in SRJC, I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife
'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here
Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you

This place full of peace and light, and I'd hope you might
take me back inside when the time is right

2008-07-06T19:37:00.006+08:00

AFterLife - AvEngeD SeVenFoLD

Like walking into a dream, so unlike what you've seen

so unsure but it seems, 'cause we've been waiting for you

Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste

of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway

I see a distant light, but girl this can't be right

Such a surreal place to see so how did this come to be

Arrived too early

And when I think of all the places I just don't belong

I've come to grips with life and realize this is going too far

I don't belong here, we gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife

'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here

A place of hope and no pain, perfect skies with no rain

Can leave this place but refrain, 'cause we've been waiting for you

Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste

of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway

This peace on earth's not right (with my back against the wall)

No pain or sign of time (I'm much too young to fall)

So out of place don't wanna stay, I feel wrong and that's my sign

I've made up my mind

Gave me your hand but realize I just wanna say goodbye

Please understand I have to leave and carry on my own life

I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife

'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here

Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you

This place full of peace and light, and I'd hope you might

take me back inside when the time is right

I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear

This place full of peace and light, and I'd hope you might
take me back inside when the time is right

--------------------------

Today, hmm so glad im feeling much better? But still gotta taken medicine like 3 times of different 4 types a day. -_- omg 3 diff types of pills and one antibiotics. I felt as if i'm like a drug addict man. :( And omg, yea jus got addicted to Avenged 7Fold (A7X) thanks to my VSXC junior Anu...whu added me on frndster and i like viewed his profile, and Poof! i got the A7X disease. :)

OmgOmg! And thx to Anu for the songs~! :D

I got to escape, I got to move on, to a place full of peace and light. :)

2008-07-05T20:37:00.009+08:00

Oh my God, just received a letter from Victoria School!! Ok lets see...Woah I'm invited to VS' 132nd Speech Day and wow I got a School Sports Colors Award..dats nice. :)

Tsk. Still have to go for the full dress rehearsal on 2nd Aug which is a Saturday!! T_T. But nvrmd,...I can take the chance to visit my sec sch agn!! Woah, comparing sec life in VS and jc life in SR, BIG DIFFERENCE, not just that, compare this:

And pathetic SR

Ah, sigh how I wish i can spend my sec and jc life just in Victoria School. Why must we change schools aft Os? Why can't we spend 6 years (just like in pri sch) in our sec sch getting Sec and JC education? What's wrong with the govt man. I miss VS lots. And i'm proud to be a VICTORIAN. And during the rehearsal and the VS Speech Day, I'm just gonna wear smart casual, not SR blazer and stuff - The thing is, I am not proud of SRJC, up till now.

Miss the VS days, sigh!! :(

Victorian Spirit

Once a Victorian, always a Victorian.

2008-07-04T23:51:00.013+08:00

I think I'm wasting time in SR.

Had gastric right before lunch today, sad so requested for early leave as it was quite bad :( and thx to Mr Marcus Quek for sending me to the clinic and home.

So at the doc, phew the doc actually wanted to give me an injection, which i objected with a "NO PLEASE!" and the " T_T " kind of look. Yea, i got injection phobia. But there's one comin' up which i cant escape from - extraction of teeth ard Aug/Sep.

So aft writing me a 2 day-MC, he kinda counselled me for quite a while, asked me abt school and my daily life, how im coping with sch, frnds, family etc. And he kinda came to a conclusion that my gastric most probably came from stress and lack of sleep. :/ And I also told him abt how stressful sch is, PW which made me sleep for at most 2-3 hours only almost every nite, and especially council - how time consuming it was, and the watched feeling it gives me. And agn i blurted everything out bcos, i really needed someone to know my burden, or else its gonna get caged inside me forever and it really hurts bad. He advised me to quit council, and said that he doesn't mind writing a letter to SR. He still asked me stuff like u got any prob wif frnds, parents, and nxt he ask me whether i got bgr...and i said no and he sort of like "O_O, phew!". Oh my God - I really want to resign from council, but the consequences? I don't know. I dun care either? I want to quit, and maybe i'll do better in sch w/o a cca, or maybe join a less time-consuming one. Or maybe Poly. Why not Poly? Generally less stress, and you don't even need to keep ur attire in check cos the rules there are super slack. And who said poly cant go university? Plus polytechnics are really not bad, and they (duh) look damn nice, with all the facilities. To me now, its like heaven there la, and i rmbed the Republic Poly(SR Musical) and Temasek Poly(Pri sch Sports Day), omg they are like 100 times better than SRJC lah. And i guess the pace is slower there ? (obvious) and has more OPEN BREATHING SPACE? In SR, i feel damn choked up, the air is like stifling and it's like suffocating me. I tink i can die due to a lack of oxygen in SR :/

I dunno. What's demoralising me now is the academic ranking thing which might/might not, be shown by the Council TAs. If they are, its like, WHAT FOR, I dun tink they know that this method can be a "The End of being in SRJC" call, instead of a wake up call. Ya lah, i'm most probably gonna be the last (im serious), and if any TA wants to talk to me, im gonna take the chance, say i cant take the stress anymore - resign, i'd be better off w/o a cca. I've gotta look at things in a realistic way, if i cant cope, quit. I dun mind despite all the effort I've put (elections) in it, I've had the experience, I've learnt, but I can't cope with my studies and council. Everybody's different, some can, some can't. And its not giving up, its being practical and realistic. If i persevere and go on, it's GG for me, I'll end up being mocked. I dun wanna go on alr, if i do, and most probably , I'll surely retain, and my council cca is gone, so what is the freaking point of persevering if u know that you cant cope already. I want to be aware of where I'm going, rather than being a blind dog.

And oh ya the TAs told us that councillors are expected to reach sch before 7.00am nxt time aft investiture. I seriously dun tink i can make it on time, unless...(read on). Agn, becos of PW which made me keep late nites, and the council early reporting time, made my whole life is crappy and senseless. Now, the reporting time's currently set to 7.15am, which im already struggling with. The reason why I'm not late 98% of the time, is because of TAXI. I cant wake up early. Ok, is 6am considered early? cos im like slping at 2-3am, latest 4am cos of studies and pw and sometimes i dun even wanna sleep cos i scared i might just oversleep and the council TAs are gonna scold me agn. And, leaving the house at 6.30am as always, I still have no choice but to take a taxi to go sch. ftw, waste my fking money and its like fkin $10 (+ extra cost) per trip to sch, and on the way dere im like taking quick glances at my watch and my mind's all abt TAs scolding me if i were late. If i wasnt in council, i cud have taken a bus, and reach sch before 7.30am ftw. And this also caused me to dose off during lessons/lectures, and i dun tink the teachers/TAs know my reason. Perhaps they might advise me to wake up earlier, but how? I sleep mostly at ard 3am now, and how can you expect me to wake up at ard 5am or smth. Dumb, want blame my time management? dun tell me JC is all about studying and we have no time for fun? If that's the case, I think i shud quit council or withdraw from JC.

I dun seem to be interested in the investiture anymore but rather in my own future now - my studies. And pls dun tink that i delibrately made myself absent on the investiture rehearsal days delibrately, its my gastric flu.

So, speaking of taxi thing agn: I dun wanna waste money anymore, its really burning a hole in my pocket, and looking back, i tink i took ard nearly at least, 50+++ taxi trips to sch since i joined council. Lost 50x10 = $500, fk. Cud have gotten a PSP wif dat.
I'm really struggling now - PW's killing me, taking up so much time, and the bodoh teachers rejecting GPP all the time as if they tink we got alot of time to amend/do research. Plus i regret being the leader, sht, i shud have let cm be the leader last time. Now i feel its like my fault that my grp's Gpp get rejected all the time, actually it is, 'cos i cant seem to find time for PW meetings, with the council stuff. It's troubling me; all this PW and Council. I wanna get out. Maybe I should heed my doctor's advise: "Lets be practical, if sumthing doesnt suit you, then dont do it. If Council is taking too much of your time, its better for you to resign. I can write a letter to ur sch." "O_O WAH", was my expression then. I didnt exactly rmb all the things he said but i only roughly rmb this one above. He oso said that i really got no confidence in myself, aft the counselling. omg. Sigh, I dun really wanna care wad ppl tink abt me anymore, I wanna care abt myself, my future, I have full control over my life and nobody's gonna control me, especially council (sorry, being a leashed nerdy kuku dog is against my nature). W/o a cca, it wont kill me. Seriously, i wont die jus because i dun have a CCA! And if i resign, those ppl who come to me and mock me as ex-councillor sacarsticly are gonna pay by kissing the ground. :)

Time to make decisions.

2008-07-02T00:46:00.002+08:00

I tink i shud start studying seriously. I shud spend more time practising and all. STOP playing.
4 U's is enough. I don't wanna go poly, I can't bear to leave my frnds and classmates. Pls start studying seriously.

Subjects to practice HARD (in order):

1. Maths
2. Chem
3. Physics
4. Econs

And there'll always be smth that'll be hindering me towards my goal - GPP. waste time.

2008-07-01T03:21:00.002+08:00

"Happy life, long life"

I don't wanna be unhappy agn :)

2008-06-30T00:35:00.006+08:00

Yay 34 more mins to Final Fantasy IX on PSP! and it's now like 99.3/100%...-_- yea you can imagine how long I took to download this. :/ But nvrmind!! 30 more mins left! Btw, nice music right? This music's from this game as well! :DD Any Final Fantasy Fans out there want the OST, I have the tracks~ :)

Haiz i really rather be a character in these rpg games, who goes through ups and downs with companions and finding their goals, discovering their truths/origins in life. Final Fantasy 9 - I want to play it, not because its fun or w/e, i know of cos its fun, but the most important thing in this game is the storyline, it makes me feel as if im experiencing the same thing with them, tragedies, happiness and all...yeah I've played it before, i miss the story, that's why im playing it agn. :) Ah, back the point, FF9's almost ready XD Hope it works well on my PSP so pls wish me good luck...

Omg, the download speed went up!! 8 more mins left!! Hmm, in the meantime, here's a short sypnosis:

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Dark times have spread over the world of Gaia. Four separate governing nations, some blinded by their short-sighted greed, some persevering in the name of justice, are battling on and off in a deadly game for power. One kingdom, that of Lindblum, headed by the honorable and trustworthy Regent Cid, finally decides to take a stand against the unspeakable massacres by the troops of Alexandria.

Enlisting the aid of mere bandits to kidnap Princess Garnet of the Alexandria Empire, for information and interrogation, Garnet and her bodyguard actually join Cid's cause, knowing full well the outlandish recklessness of the governing Queen, who counterattacks with an onslaught of warriors. Thus begins a crossfire that would engulf the world in something far worse than political standoffs.

Out of the band of thieves, one boy along with his entourage must battle his way through several awe-inspiring challenges to restore order and peace.

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99.9%, 5.7kb/sec XDXD Almost! 6 more mins!!

~FINAL FANTASY IX !!~

*tears of joy and excitement*

2008-06-29T09:33:00.020+08:00

Yes, sighing again.

Warning: I'm moody when I typed this post, so there are some things that are either out of point or totally makes sense.

HHHHHHHaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiZZZZZZZZZZZZ. I don't want Monday to come T_T, OK I'll tell you what's bothering me. My knee's case. Ya..my knee's injured, bandaged, it's not that serious but it really hurts when I walk. So i decided not to go for Principal Tea Session. My parents are always working, until e nite. And I have no idea where a physician/doctor or w/e u call it. But luckily my Dad knows how to 'treat' my knee, so ya now it's bandaged. But the freaking prob is now, 'cos i smsed the TAs and said I couldn't go, they wanted an MC on Monday, a freaking MC, when I had no choice but to give a parents' letter. My knee hurt abit the day before the tea session and the day it hurt the most was on the teasession day, cos i walked too much the day before. It's a strain which I got often when I was running in the vs cross country days, so ya nth much, but it just hurts went walking, and i cant bend my knee much. But all these prev cases, I wud just let it 'heal' naturally. I duno, im frustrated, its only a tea session...I know its an official council event and an MC is required. But if i give a parents letter, i know u will nag. The pain has almsot gone away now, but i'll still put on the bandage, FOR PROOF. damn it. I've nvr been to all those wad i call 'bone specialists' before, and I duno how to go? even if i decide to go, i think i'll take yrs to crawl there on that day? Ya so hell im giving a parents letter and i'll see how it goes. If don't accept parents' letter, fine, just mark me as 'Did not turn up PURPOSELY' la, U tink im scared? Conduct grade only what. Fair then fair lah, it's not as if its a death sentence liddat. ftw

And next is Council, bothered me hell lots. I really dislike this feeling, the kinda hypocritical and sacarstic feeling. Especially ~~rats+nm~~. You cant and will nvr be a frndly person to me. Show black face/ultra strict face and attitude all the freaking time right?. It doesnt make you fierce. If i dun know u and i see u outside, u are jus some thing i dun even gif a damn about. Even if you want to be friendly, to me, I really feel that you are just sacarstic and 'hiding a knife behind your back'. Boring and everything's dry, with ur presence in council meetings - there's no fun at all, to me. You make the atmosphere freezing cold and everything u say to me is filled with sacarsm. I dun feel happy, and speaking of that, now i realise being in the council gives me the feeling of being watched with a keen eye. Luckily im not elected for exco, or else this feeling will be worst. This feeling pressurises me, it stresses me, it makes me frustrated, and my every wrong actions, are 'exposed' to the rest in a sacarstic manner and the person gave me a quick 'ha i owned u' kind of stare. I know I fell asleep, i know i DOODLED during the Event-management seminar. For the sleeping part, you think i wanted that? u tink we are all humans who can sleep early? WHAT? Blame myself on my time management? JC's life's all abt sudying and no fun? I tink u shud get a life seriously. I wud rather u scold me, then show me ur sacarsm skills. I know ur sacarsm skills maximum level alr la, i congratulate u for getting the [Outstanding Sacarstic Skills Award]. Lucky there's only 1+ yrs left to go, or maybe less than half a yr 'cos of poly. I wanna get out asap. Luckily, frnds in council & classmates kept me going. But still the time for regret has come. I 'quited' canoeing wasnt because it was tiring, but dirty. Didnt join track cos i had enuff of it during my secondary sch days. So since most PAE frens are in council, and the idea of organising all those events, rocks, so i joined Council, without considering the harmful effects. I really dislike being always aware of my actions and especially my attire, I've no prob with my uniform, but my hair i want it long(abv average), i swear i'll nvr cut it as short agn. WHAT. see me with long hair jealous? or does it piss u off? And if u see me with outrageous hairstyles pls come and tell/scold me, dont just notice from behind and tell urself 'Thomas u r owned, ur conduct grade is gonna suffer' or sth. Damn. I seriously dont care alr, I know councilors must always keep in check of their attire, but sorry, its my habit - i can't live with high slope and no fringe, etc. I dun care abt wad council conduct alr, i cud have joined some other sports cca and live life stressfree, with no 'u are being watched' feeling and long fringe and tail :). So now im just gonna give that parent's letter and i won't give a damn abt anything, unless sumone steps in my way and bothers me with loads of crap. I really now hate being expected of being a role model. WHAT. You want us to be high-sloped nerds AKA COUNCILLORS?? Yes, I want to organise events, discuss and stuff. But with You ard, it totally sucks. And Who the hell in MOE made such a rule. Long hair doesnt necessary mean you are some gangster or some thug or sth rite, WHAT? Spoils sch reputation? That means all the Poly schools are gangsta schs la issit?. It's FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION, and hell, it's ART FOR GOD'S SAKE. And dumb, if there is this no-long-hair-for-boys rule, yes, it is alright for girls with long hair, im absolutely fine with that, but not BOTCHES who WAX their hair and abusing the its-ok-for-girls-to-have-long-hair rule. These SR 'girls' wax their hair into long boyish hairstyles, and the hairstyles these 'girls' wax into, are meant for boys/lesbos, not girls. damn gender discrimination? How bout i be gay so i can have long hair FTW. I should have gone to a Polytechic! They know we NS gonna cut botak hair alr why cant let us freaking enjoy abit. See other countries, like Canada, who gives a sht about hairstyle man. Agn, i regreted coming to a JC. And Role models, do the rest of the student population even care abt us trying so hard to be role models? they wud rather mind their own business. Now I've cut my hair not because they asked me to, it's my conscience, which is 'cos of this irritating 'you-are-being-watched' feeling. Even if they see us with nerdy kuku hair, will they(long hair ppl) like follow us and cut nerdy kuku hair??? NO RIGHT. ONLY STupid no IQ and EQ DUMBOS do that. And we are even expected to pass with flying colors~ cos we are ROLE MODELS, so the student population will look upon us as role models and study hard oso..FTW, who said leaders must be totally smart? Pass all the test summore. Councillors can't play PSP in the sch premises issit? must study all the time so that we can do well for the test cos we are supposed to be freaking role models? and if we dont do well we surely get scolded la, or maybe not scolded..., but get owned by sacarsm. I wanna be a normal human, a normal student, regret being a puppet, a DOG. I said puppet and Dog is becos of u. W/o u, being a councilor is a privilege. And wad's wrong with pink shoelaces, its a mini trend, and not a gangmember-must-have thing. Im gonna buy new shoes alr so im not gonna wear it agn. HAPPY RIGHT, U OWNED ME. Talk abt role models. And i seriously, almost had enuff of ur attitude during the CTC. it doesnt make u fierce and respected. at least the others are more open, and they do not show black faces all the time. it makes u ugly. I tried so hard, did so much, even faced my fears of public speaking and all jus to be in council and thanks this is wad i've got - my present, which turns out to be a load of crap. And I bet all the elections are rigged.So Damn obvious. Only losers rigg/undermine votes. Why dont you show us the number of votes each of the elects got? Y keep it confidential? ANNOUNCE IT LA

Anw I shud really blame myself too, I brought this upon myself. Yong Khoon made the right choice. I really envy him. Hell i dun want a nice testimonial alr, i dun even care now. I wud now rather choose to get lots of acne in canoeing (dirty) rather than SRJC council. It's not because of the rest of the councillors or TAs, it's you. And for God's sake, this is only SRJC, not VJC or TJC or RJC or ACJC or even SAJC. SRJC's just one of the last few bottom JCs, so, don't expect too much out of this srjc council. I really hope that the new TAs will make a better life for us. PLEASE, DON'T FOLLOW THE 'EXPERIENCED' ONES AND MAKE IT WORST. Thought the rules will be much more flexible and not strict, but it turns out that srjc is worst, their rules are dead cold and hard, unlike VJC, SAJC, or even NYJC which I at first intended to go to. The only good thing abt srjc are the good and devoted active young teachers, with some exceptions. And the Principal. But.....definitely not you, u spoil it.

Yes, dats all. I'm terribly frustrated. Someone help me. I cant stand it any longer alr. Either I bear wif it silently, or i explode like a bomb and destroy everything in my way.

Life sucks~ :/

2008-06-27T15:24:00.005+08:00

Crap, my knee hurts bad, lucky my dad knows how to handle it, or else I will have to cab/walk to nearby physician! T_T Hope the pain goes away asap...sigh, cant even walk properly :(
...maybe i fell down my bed last night? :(

'Cos of that, decided to rest, so gave the tea session and hanging out with frnds a MISS. :( My right knee's bandaged now...so sad, hahas. :/ And woo yay thx to Rosken moisturiser, my skin's not dry anymore, *celebrates* XD

But, sigh, great my psp's half-spoilt, i can still play vids and songs, but the display screen, the umd lens, 'home' button, are faulty...and coupled with some other funny problems which makes my game lag, it is crazy.
And the repairs cost up to 150+..., so must as well get a new one. :/ 'cos i really nid it man!! I wanna play Final Fantasy IX on PSP! and I miss Monster Hunter Portable 2nd G~ T_T

2008-06-27T00:43:00.005+08:00

LoL, just came home from Hougang Plaza. Today was both stress :/ and fun! :D

Chemistry test today was quite easy, started with Section B, and finished Section A in just 10 minutes. Sigh, I hope for a C...at least got some improvement from the D's I got from the previous lecture tests :/ Hey lets look on the bright side, how we fared for this MYE doesn't prove much. This SHOULD be a wake up call for us to stop slacking, and to start working hard, and make sure I don't 'zZz' during lectures! *_*

So aft the test in e super cold freezin' hall, went to buy bbtea slacked at the playground wif frnds, den went home. Wah reached home at ard 12.10pm, and I gotta reach Vivo agn, at 12.30. -_-, obviously I couldn't. Lol had the temptation to play abit of dota...but sigh, dont wanna let my classmates wait any longer even though i'll be late, so bathed and rushed off ;)

So reached Vivo, wow for movie: Get Smart...freaking hilarious!!! Laughed till my jaws ache lah.
JOKER. Next movies to watch: Hancock! Journey to the centre of the earth, Mummy tomb of dragon king, Dark Knight, Dont mess with Zohan and more weeeeeeeeee!

So after movie slacked ard Vivo, went to Pet Safari, wow the dogs, hamsters, and puppies damn cute. ^_^
So ate at Kopitiam, hahas and phew finally so tired can go home alr. But suddenly, 'Hey want go play pool?

-_-

So we went to Hougang Plaza, hit some balls with sticks (L0L) bought some donuts too...omg, jus couldn't resist my desire for sweet stuff!!

Lol played till 11.30 and went home, yes, here blogging, later play dota...and practise for tml's KBOX!!! XDXDXD

Ok gtg now bye!

2008-06-25T22:22:00.005+08:00

Sigh...again. Yesterday's Chinese was a real killer! Omg lah they expect us to finish writing/answering so many questions! ;( nvrmind abt MT, -_-. So aft the scribbling test, went SAC agn to study math! Felt tired agn aft 'trying' to memorise some formulae, so I went into my cozy world of dreams ;) But soon my dreams turned back to reality, the stress-free, burden-free feeling was gone and the MYE thing struck me hard (shit MATH!) ;(

Sigh, math. Got 3-4 qns halfway done and the last qn part 2 undone. Sigh, maybe I can safely hope for at least a C? :/

And today~ is Physics! No joke, this phyiscs test is hard, sure U. Shouldn't even have chosen Physics in the first place...sigh. I dropped physics during sec 4 and now I'm taking H2 Physics in JC!! This is wad I call SUICIDAL.

Okie gotta go own the Chem ppr tml, been studyin' hard for it ;O hope I get a B or C. Or else I'm withdrawing to Poly nxt yr. >;( Ah omg my skin condition is like so dry now, and its...nvm. Gotta buy moisturisers tml! SOS - Save our Skin!!

Woots~ revamped my blog agn!

GG, MYE.

2008-06-23T22:06:00.006+08:00

Sigh man, today is GP and Econs.

Gp? Well i think i've written quite fine, got some points blah blah, just hope i'll pass that...and

Econs hmm...

I KNOW NOTHING ABT MARKET FAILURE!!

And today aft the shity tests went to sac study maths, but i slept mostly through out 'cos I was like so tired...slept at ard 2.30am last night (GP!!). So nxt took bus to my good-ole Victoria School ;), to help my ex-classmate/neighbour :) return some impt keys to the teacher cos he couldn't make it today.hahas. And nxt went to Parkway Parade...got my haircut.

EMO *CRAP LA MY HAIR SO SHORT NOW* EMO

And tml is Chinese and MATHEMATICS!!!

But a sigh of relief, heard that the % for MYE in Promos is only around te size of this: .

All the lecture tests, class participation, homework, etc and MYE = 20% of promos

HA!~

2008-06-21T21:02:00.007+08:00

SSSSSiiiiiiiiiiiiAAAAAAAAnnnnnnnn, 1 more day till MYE:

Monday: GP and Econs
Tuesday: Chinese LUCKY no composition writing ;) and Maths
Wednesday: Physics
Thursday: Chemistry

OhmyGod, I haven't even started on GP yet, and time is like, running out? Well, I decided to just read through a few essays from Aspire, and take the risk, and just read the marriage topic, that's all. :/ And for Econs, same, my interest in it is like 1%? But nvrtheless, still got read thru, and just memorise the definitions and graphs! :O

Study Maths!!

Ah yes, lucky Chinese no composition, otherwise I've been screwed!! LoL, erm chinese seems fine, just have to keep a clear and focused mind so that I will know what I'm doing during the test. =) And now, gg, maths. I'm so gonna recap on every chapter manz, Partial Fractions ok, Binomal ok, Trigo so-so, Graphs so-so, APGP and Summation of Series...BAD, I think I'll just memorise the steps, formulae, and wish myself good luck. :/

Study Physics and Chemistry!!

Ok...Physics...comfirm fail. But I still hope that I can pass it, studied much already, but can't get those things into my head. Just hope to pass it. Just rmb all the formulae!!

Study Chemistry!!

Ah, Chemistry. I wanna get at least a B for it, put in alot of effort in it over the past few weeks, sacrificed physics time for it :X hahas. So agn, just memorise the formulae, and especially the shapes and angles and steps in Chem Bonding! omg and another hard one, The Gaseous State/Partial Pressure GOOD LUCK.

Study NOTHING!

Ok, enough of my nonsense, now today, in ~~the city of townsville~~, went school today, studied some maths with gab, val, cm, bexx, shi hui, and mr lau. Did some APGP qns, and hah Mr lau said i only needed to comb my hair, but i good boy, told him i gonna cut today, which i eventually didnt have the time to. So aft studying for "awhile", we decided to pack up and head for the bubbletea shop, and I actually dared to eat otah and drink the peach milktea. Opps Sorry couldn't resist the temptation!!

Anw, as long as I brush my teeth, I should be ok ;) So nxt went to Hougang Mall, bought a battery-operated toothbrush, face-wash and crap speaking of face wash, recently an acne outbreak occurred, its very depressing, and when you look at the mirror everyday and u see dots on your face, don't feel like going out, 'cos you've lost the confidence etc. It's like a ~~metrosexual's~~ worst nightmare. LOL. Sigh. I need Accutane (Vitamin A). =) Clears 'em in a few days! 101% effective, but expensive. (costed me $180 per month. T_T ) Ah nvm abt that. So I bought all the stuffs, and headed home..yeah I played games for "awhile", and now I'm blogging, and going to study some maths next till my eyes give up. :O

Oh yea, aft MYE gotta go VSXC training soon, i really miss the running trainings, so aft MYE, VSXC '07's gonna hang out soon! VSXC '07 is missed! Run, run, run~ = FUN

And yay im so glad that the pain in my teeth is going away, I wanna EAT EVERYTHING!! :d Because of braces I've been 'starving' lah, I really miss sweet stuff man, omg and I just satisfied myself with some today lol. opps! =X

And uh, ok say early good bye to my hair, 'cos they're gonna get cut tml. And to me!! BYE!

2008-06-18T20:45:00.002+08:00

...

...

...I cant bite...

...I cant eat my favourite things...

...

...no carbonated drinks, no crunchy stuff, no hard stuff, no sugary stuff.

...no coke, no chewy junior, no munchy donuts, no delifrance, no jack's place, no breadtalk, no mcdonald's, no kfc, no subway, no burger king, no choco milk, no oreo, no milo. T_T

...

...

...

...For 2 years,

...Porridge, fruit juice...and soft stuff only. sigh.

T_T

I want sweet

...

...and it's gonna hurt for the next 2 weeks. Thomas, good luck man...

2008-06-17T02:17:00.002+08:00

ah crap less than one week left till MYE. i hate this. Did you notice my blog posts get shorter and shorter every time? ALL BECOS OF MYE.

BYE. =O

2008-06-15T23:14:00.004+08:00

haha before it's 12 am midnight I shall wish all Fathers a...

...HAPPY FATHERS' DAY!!!

To all the fathers in the world: You are loved! :D

Ah felt real bad, was sick this whole week and i actually almost forgot that today was June 15! and sorry, i was too sick to get my dad something. =( nvm my dad's in an all-smiles mood today.

So as usual, stayed at home agn, played hard, studied hard! (maybe not) =O My fever's gettin worst and Wed's my braces day omg I getting the creeeps. June Hols is boring lah. Dont even call it June Hols, call it something like June Studying Period. I miss school. OMG i couldn't believe i actually ~~said~~typed dat =S lalalala bye mug chem agn! really, seriously, truely, inevitably, certainly, unluckily, MYE is COMING and TIME is running out! =X study..study..study..y did i go a JC. :( aft JC still got NS!! Besides being near the equator, I hate SG on this one

So gtg now! bye sepians! =O

2008-06-15T00:34:00.003+08:00

BLOG IS ART weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

ReVamPed BloG, made it myself...with IRON MAN as the theme!! Really Iron Man is the best movie ever made, Best movie in America!! of cos the rest of the world too uh! ;) So cool it made me drool haha. =P well not really drool, as in my mouth open wide. yea haha =D

ok im so gonna bathe agn, thanks to global warming im sweating agn. aft bathing im so gonna turn on the aircon and start my muggin'. :P seriously is the Earth dying? Y izzit so hot ard 'ere. =( The worst thing abt Singapore is that she's located at the equator manz. Wait. Maybe im jus having a fever. -_- I need a rest! But MYE is like sprinting towards me, ready to knock me out?? X(

Im so gonna study hard aft MYE, cos it will surely be a wakeup call fer me -_-. I know there's no time left. MYE is gonna EAT me up...ouch.

June Hols? i doubt so. :/

2008-06-12T21:59:00.005+08:00

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Today nth much except mugging chemistry...and blogging of cos! ;D

Really tired out now, but still gotta finish study chemistry redox! Well im kinda the self study type, so i seldom ask teachers for consultation sessions...so ya im a solo'er =PP Lecture Books and worksheets are my best frnds!! =D Oh and Alan take really good care of yourself! ;D Everythings gonna be fine! ;)

Ah i tink i shud really get a new pair of shoess :) I'm a NIKE fan, last time went to Orchard and looked ard in the nike shop there and hmm saw two which look quite nice, but duno which one to get :/ haha. Tell mE!! X-)

Nike Court Force!

Okayy, really got no time to continue blogging now, gotta go peeps! Bye! :D

2008-06-11T20:32:00.019+08:00

At the void deck outside SRJC!!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, love blogging + dinner =D!!. Today's great, really, with the sense of achievement of completing the Student Council Investiture rehersals. Was acutally sick in the morning today, didnt wanna come, but omg this rehersal is so impt, so i jus grabbed a jacket, in case I feel cold later, which was wad i felt for the whole day. Wow, and had Mcdonald's delivery for lunch, McChicken EVM + My Favourite Double CheesooooBARGAR!! XDXD, but due to my 'tooth ache' didnt eat the fries, 'cos they are like so cold, and hard - hurts. ouch. :/ So aft that we learnt to sing the Council Song, and some others. Wow, really enjoyed the singing!!!! Finally one of my fav hobbies (singing), paid off lol, but lol really like the chorus and ahh the other stanzas =)))!

So later when everything ended, BUBBLETEA TIME. So we all went to buy, had a chat/gossip, and later joined the rest at the playground, talk talk agn. Slept for awhile there while the rest chit chatted GOSSIP LIKE FREE. LOL haha so blah blah dats all for the day and went home

And did i tell you i really like Japanese songs now?, really fell in love wif JAP!! Hmm although i duno wad they mean, but the songs, especially the vocals really sound super nice! Really hope i can find time, maybe dec hols to learn that fun language! and go Japan too! And thanks to SuG, i really wanna learn to play the electric guitar, so nice and cool, agn, dec hols!! mate mate!! Maybe I shud save for one now! Until I get one, I'll find frnds who know how to play it. TEACH ME! XD So, dats all, Sayonara!

Rmb, you are still the sweetest girl and cutest girl that I've ever met!
And, You'll still be that sweet, gentle and pretty girl in my heart!
Nature will definitely bring us the best path :)
Takecare. :)

I've changed alot, for the better,
Couldn't imagine how lifeless my life would have been if I never known you.

Thanks, you were my motivation too :)

2008-06-10T23:39:00.013+08:00

At Simei Eastpoint BK :)

Got up at 12.30 today, when my alarm clock went off at around 1030. Im such a pig. =( sigh. got maths lesson at 1330hrs! =/ so quickly got up, prepared and went off to school, luckily the bus trip got a green wave, or else i wud have been so late :D and guess wad, it hurts, my teeth every single tooth hurts now, sigh. So today had maths lesson, and later aft that we folded some paper cranes and some other fluffy stuff put em into a box and i used some colored glitter glue, wrote/drew the name: GUO QIANG. =D haha yea todae went to visit Guo Qiang, see how he was @ Changi Hospital, and thank God he was alrite, jus felt giddy only, and hey he's gonna get discharged soon! =) omg the tissue in the hospital is so special unlike the ones found in public...lol. so we like had a talk wif him, see whether he's ok anot, and yea off we went (me valerie gabriel jon cheeming bexx) to BK AGAIN, then bexx broke off cos she had dinner haha. BK, 3 times in a row, same meal BK mushroom swiss meal, upsize, change fries to onion rings and another chocolate heshie sundae pie, and sprite. =X i tink im getting fat. lolz. pretty bad day for me, cos i m falling sick, with cold/sneezing and 'water' just flowed out of my nostrils..OMG terribLE feeling. i tink its sinus, but i tot sinus happens only when we wake up/ ard morning, and not in the evening? lol. nvm abt that, altho its still irritating me, and my nose is kinda blocked now. SIGH. =O cold + 'tooth ache' = pain and irritating feeling. Guess i'll have to sleep as soon as possible after blogging, i really need a break - maybe its 'cos of stress. :/ and the most pissing moment of the day - stupid dota match. MY WORST DOTA GAME, the reason why i sound so dull now. nvm abt that agn, i shan't share my sadness. Lol. ok gtg!

I will always be there for you, that is, if you give me the chance to.
So, should I go on waiting for that chance, and hope that it will come one day?
Or, am I even, given the chance to wait in the first place?
Or you don't care at all?
Or maybe I'm really not good enough?

So, wouldn't it be better if I had given up waiting, which was the last time when I said hurtful things?
I really love you, but, this 3rd party feeling is killing me , I sometimes feel avoided, jealous and misunderstood.
If you are scared of hrtbrks, then you've already already broken mine.

Am I really halucinating? :/
Don't tell me there are better ones out there, 'cos if there really is, I won't be doing all this, agn.
You, are not the lousiest tree in the forest, and
don't, be so unconfident of yourself, jst believe in yourself
OR, are you are dwelling over the past?
I think I shan't disturb you then, so
I will try, to let go, since I think I'm (could be) waiting for nothing,
'cos I don't get any assurance that I can continue waiting, for you, for your love.

I dnt know, what can i ever do, to make you see how impt you are to me, but
I've tried, but maybe not hard enough? I dnt knw.
I'm not the only one for you, but you are the only one for me. Agn, what can i ever do to make you see.

Maybe I should not even have let you know my feelings. Maybe I should have just kept it. We could have been good frnds who can communicate better, or maybe EVEN smile when we see each other, or even say a simple 'Hello'. Now, even a simple smile/greeting from you makes my day, or even btr, a small conversation, makes my week. I'll always be the one at fault for all that has happened, be'cos I started all this. So dnt ever worry.

But the last few PAE days were great. Regretted behaving like some emo idiot.
But what has happened, has happened. Wrong start, everything screwed up. I've lost completely, my chance.

Ever since you were in Draco b4 PAE - Your sweet smile which i saw from the edge of my vision, when the teacher Ms Liu checked my hair. I remember. ;) sitting beside me in the hall, you were.

And 23 Feb '08 will always be the best day I've ever had.

I am willing to wait for you forever. please, let me wait
If you don't want, just tell me off straight in my face, of cos I will be uber sad, but only for a little while, and pooof, it'll be over, and you can continue living your life, happily, a load off your mind.

PEACE OUT.

2008-06-10T01:55:00.012+08:00

zilian abit before going Toa Payoh NTUC Denticare...Greg I like ur camwhoring disease! :D

Ahh! omg today just got some Xray (I hate the radioactive sign), wah 1st time i saw the 'inside' of my head, with bones, teeth and all and MY GOD, 4 wisdom tooth how unlucky is that, im so gonna suffer like hell. And the worst part, is the moulding - dentist (Dr Susan Boey :D ) took pics of my teeth, and asked me to bite some minty flavoured mould. Wah scary, Dr Sus had 8 seperators inserted in between some of my upper and lower teeth, and like wad the Dr Sus said, its better to be uncomfortable now than uncomfortable after putting on the braces, so oh well hahas, it doesnt hurt that much anyway, in fact, it only aches abit =X. and ha. OH MY GOD 18th June is the DAY, I and Alan, offically will be putting braces =S ohh god, im scared! Officially 18th June we'll be eating only porridge and drinking water for damn long. =(

So aft xray and moulding went to PS wif that Alan agn, watched KungFu Panda...and omy, Funny but the storyline is so predictable, it somehow gets a little boring. And omg didnt know Jackie Chan acted as the voice for the Monkey, until I found out during the credits part...and guess who acted the voice for the Panda? Jack Black!!! OMG. I would say this movie is ok, really funny, and yea, gotta revise econs now, got maths lesson at 1.30pm tml, and council meeting the day after. Sigh, I need to rest!

I'm sorry to have disturbed you, I (think I) jst realised what you were going thru all this while.

2008-06-09T00:18:00.010+08:00

Wah today stayed at home all day agn! and tml gotta got for xray wif alan, maybe going to watch Kungfu Panda haha! omg havent really started my GP essay yet (due on monday 10am T_T) feelin really thirsty now...wahh...im tired...i need motivation, i really gotta put aside all emotional stuff...and concentrate on revision..or else i really wont make it pass MYE...

All this, all that, is tiring. wah im beat =/

I want a break

2008-06-08T17:13:00.013+08:00

i'm doing this thanks to Sam, haha.

Instructions: Replace one question from below and replace it with your own.

1. What's your favourite food?
*Tummy complains: THOMAS I WANT $10 WORTH OF MCDONALD's DOUBLE CHEESEBURGERS!

2. What is the one thing you would change if you had a chance to go back into the past?
- I shouldn't have told her my feelings. Should have kept it hiden within me

3. What's going to happen tomorrow?
- Dental Xray for Braces wif Alan =) =D maybe get a pair of new shoes too? XD

4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?
- Depends. But most of the time, I'll just get irritated, which will go off in a few minutes.

5. When do you wish to die?
- I want my AEGIS

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Yup =D I hope it does, for me.

7. How long will you wait for your love?
- Forever. But I need assurance, so that I know I'm not waiting for nothing.

8. Do you believe in eternal love?
- YES. I believe.

9. Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
- Wad.? I hope not. =/

10. Where is your favourite holiday destination?
- Anywhere as long as it with loved ones in my lifetime

11. Describe your other half?
- Dnt have a gf.

12. What feelings do you hate most?
- Feeling of being avoided. Being misunderstood.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- Frnds are impt. Better to make frnds than enemies right?

14. What are you looking forward to in the upcoming weeks?
- MuGGing. =D

15. The most important thing in your life?
- My family and friends.

16. What makes you happy?
- When everything goes fine, and also when my wishes come true.

17. Do you find life meaningless?
- No. Life is exciting, with those ups and downs =)

18. Have you ever loved someone?
- Yes, and will continue to

19. List one thing that you are scared of.
- Losing my loved ones, and my hope dashed.

20. What's your greatest wish?
- World Peace. And to be with that someone who is very important to me

21. What if one of your loves betray you?
- Move on, but it'll take a long time to heal. But definitely not suicidal.

Tag 7 people, list them out at the end of the post.
Notify them in their chatterbox that they have been tagged:
1. Valerie Yeo
2. Gregory
3. Jason
4. Daniel
5. Jovien
6. Kwok Cheung
7. Han Hao

We are like South Poles which always repel each other, we cant talk, communicate, interact etc, there is always a repelling force in between us.

The only solution is to put a metal rod in between us, and we will attract.

This metal rod is this simple little thing called 'Love'.

2008-06-07T15:55:00.012+08:00

omg! jus woke up - its alr 4pm! good afternn! =O yawnz..homework time! bye hha shall update soon on todae =)) Vi Vi Vi!

Hmm lets say today is my first day of mugging...so finished revising partial fractions, so tml binomal next!

and maybe more...lets all do well for MYE! at least a B!

ok im off to study byess

Take your time. If we are not fated to be, it's not, and you don't have to force urself either. And, thanks for everything

.

Hhahas. heres a cute SuG MV, Vi-Vi-Vi!

Enjoy!

Bye hahas!

Edit: Deleted lol

you can hold on to me, 'cos i won't let you go

2008-06-06T22:09:00.024+08:00

Finally Camp Aspire is over. It was quite fun, but quite tiring (of cos) at times, but still knowing that my friends are also going thru the same thing, it kept me going on =) thx guys =D so aft the camp aspire, went to MCDONALDS wif John and Alan, yeah finally we can have a nice meal aft 2+ dumb days of spicy cold food. ate till my stomach got ard 96% full, hahas heavenly!

Day 1: hmm supposed to reach sch at 6.45am for council briefing, but woke up at 620! lucky got my daddy to send me there, but still reached at ard 7, lucky mr lau (who was there) didnt say anything and luckily i wasnt the last one haha! So aft the council briefing, it all began =O ~~ lol the first day was quite ok, got into our groups which were so randomly chosen...starting wasnt quite bonded wif the rest, cos im the type who really nids quite some time to adapt to new comapny of ppl. =D so first we had a scavanger hunt, den later had Amazing Race around SG, fun la, but tiring cos i was the IC of the grp so had to manage many stuff, which was really tough. lemme try to name all my grp members haha if i can rmb the name and spelling =/ it's: samantha, valerie, shawn, leslie, john, leon, jocelyn, jiaqi, edwin, guoren, nicholas, timothy, jessica, louisa, the rest really cant rmb sorry! =(( wah oso timothy and shawn's breakdancing was superb manz! outside esplanade summmore! And the Singapore flyer's super big and wah one day i must really go there at least once in my life!

Day 2: =) Had a sea expedition, kayaking frm pasir ris park all the way to pulau ubin! and worst thing is that the wave current is against us omg, me and alan like struggled all the way, going the wrong direction all the time but i think this is still the best part of the day weeeeeeeeeee.
Woah when we finally reached pulau ubin, its a nice place, like thailand. Cos the way the villagers there live, and how their houses/shops look like, really reminds me of chiang mai =) Den later omg the campfire was like so screwed up cos of time constraint, lack of resources etc, but really it was quite impressive in the end. den later slept in the hut...and luckily the DARE was interupted by mr yong! otherwise i would get owned by leslie alr when i was sleeping =X

Day 3: woohoo, last day of camp! yay! and the most fun day of the camp i must say! so early in the morning had land expedition, which last ard 3+hrs trekking ard pulau ubin - learn many things, bonded lots, had fun, but my faith and hope decreased...i dnt know what to say.

So went back to Singapore aft everything ended - finally CIVILISATION! =DD
miss singapore, and of cos HOME lots! when the camp finally came to an end, went out and den home and poooooooooooofffff here blogging.

exhausted by the camp, wif aches and bites here and dere, i think i twisted my neck abit, hurts now. really gotta slp soon and start studying and do my gp essay tml. ok gd bye i gotta go!

2008-06-04T00:45:00.009+08:00

Yun Jia you jus successful promoted SuG lol they damn nice la. the hair all damn nice. actually got to pack stuff for camp. but watched other SuG's vids until now. omg. so late alr 1am alrdy. haha PROMOTING SUG HERE TOO!

Online Videos by Veoh.com

Japs are so cool lol =)

2008-06-03T22:44:00.003+08:00

Camp Expire...looking forward............for it to be over as soon as possible.

haha, so lets see: Today pretty screwed up day, em forgot abt the GCE interview agn, so sigh, no more Hong Kong, but nvrm hahas. maybe I can join VSXC in their Chiang Mai trip this Dec =DDD Later aft sch went out wif Alan Daphne Rohith Daniel Ibrahim and Yong Khoon at compass point, looked at some laptops, haiz hope i can get another VAIO preferbly Aroma Black colored =). woah saw a cool movie trailer in one of the 'laptops' - Hancock some bloody imba human wif superhuman strength and omg he just threw a whale into the sea lol. and he can fly. O_O looks cool, he wasnt even scratched when a train just ran thru him, instead there's a big hole in the middle of the train lol. ahh enuff. but its a must watch! 2 July 08! Lol Yong Khoon unlucky uh...wah seh..ur yoshinoya meal sad. but i feel sorry for you =/ and luckily the atm machine eject ur posb card...or else..wah. so haiz, back to my main disappointment, CAMP ~~ASPIRE~~ Expire. Havent even packed a single thing yet. feeling abit sick. but got VIP going! how can i not go! zZz. And i must really bring as little stuff as possible man, otherwise i''ll have to suffer like during the CTC agn. Woah heard that tml there'll be amazing race @ suntec...lol sounds cool, and really wonder wad we'll be doing dere, hahas =D. and later ah the hard part - kayaking all the way frm pasir ris park to pulau ubin omg. hope this one's not true and frm an unreliable source manz. zZz. OMG, and i havent even started memorising my script for the campfire skit...stress. REALLY WANT IT TO END.

OK...GTG SUFFER FOR THE NEXT 3 DAYS...hope it'll be fun dere...

A smile a day keeps my emoness away =))

ok YTD:

2008-06-03T03:09:00.004+08:00

Weeeeeeeeeeeee. lol 1 more day to camp aspire. ain't looking forward to it. Lol feeling kinda traumatised cos of wad we've all been thru during the CTC. sigh, really want to get it over and done with =/. Today's kinda fun, lol, talk talk talk, do some work, physics, den econs tutorial (copying session), hand really hurt alot. and yay thought there's gonna be nth more aft dat...,den my nightmare turned into reality, really got council rehearsal, and omg tot i got replaced by sumone else for my skit, but in the end i had to do it agn, sigh, agn agn, why was i so enthu agn that time?? oh wells so acted out in the skit several times, haha and it was fun watching all the rest practising their cheers and campfire songs =DD and omg ROHITH AKA SHAKIRA HAIR-RAISING voice and sCArY. i get the creeps -_- den later got pw...do do do, think think, discuss discuss, split job...consult consult...and tml have to reach sch at 8am to do PW >;(

Ok haha ah so later aft pw went to Jack's Place @ Parkway Parade, dined wif my family ohh nice and yummy! and dats not all....today is actually my mummy's bdae!!! haha really happy =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!

Lols so aft headed home to do some pw, and den blogged, listened to songs, relaxed until now - 3 am. wooo time to slp. Cos tml I planning to visit VSXC (VICTORIA SCHOOL CROSS COUNTRY) miss sheikha, mr ho(not sure), mr Tan(not sure too) and all juniors and ex-teammates , pals, comrades!! Cant wait! tml at 5pm at macritchie reservoir!!

You have beautiful eyes

2008-06-01T22:07:00.006+08:00

I CAN'T STUDY MUCH BECAUSE OF PROJECT WORK!! CRAP!!

WEE 1S04 FLH HAHA

RANDOM

BORED

disgusting lol

Had nothing better to do haha.

hmm today basically stayed at home agn, rushing thru pw...as i said earlier, cant study much cos really had lots of research. And i and my grp even had to see ms yeo tml 7 am @ SAC ;<>

oh yea, gotta consult teachers and mug once holiday starts! gotta be optimistic! at least a B for each sub, altho i know i'll do badly for econs ;( opps pessimistic agn...sigh. omg, really loved this song and listened to it for e whole day...until now, which is like 3 am...wooo and i finally completed pw...but got some blanks here and dere..omg y am i the leader? why an i so enthusiastic dat time -_-. Chee ming can be leader? i be assistant leader can alrdy. =)

ahh how am i gonna wake up so early tml..left 2 more hours to slp and im still blogging..err..its not wasting time ok..blogging is impt everydae =DD so yea looking forward to the june hols mugging + fun.

okie gotta go. God Bless. especially you.

Maybe saying all the bad stuff was a good thing, it made me realise how impt u r 2 me.

2008-05-31T21:02:00.008+08:00

怎么隐藏我的悲伤

How to hide my sadness

失去妳的地方

The place where I lost you

妳的髮香散的匆忙

The fragrance of your hair scatters hastily

我已经跟不上

I already cannot catch up

闭上眼睛还能看见

With my eyes closed, I can still see

妳离去的痕跡

The traces of your departure

在月光下一直找寻

I keep searching under the moonlight

那想念的身影

For that silhouette that I’m thinking of*

如果说分手是苦痛的起点

If breaking up can be said to be the starting point of pain

那在終点之前我愿意再爱一遍

Then before the final destination point, I’m willing to love once again

想要对妳说的不敢说的爱

I want to tell you, the love that I dare not express

会不会有人可以明白

Will anyone be able to understand

我会发着呆然后忘记妳

I will be staring off into space, then I will forget you

接着紧紧地闭上眼

And then tightly close my eyes

想着那一天会有人代替

Thinking about that day, when there will be someone who’ll take your place

让我不再想念妳

So that I will not think about you anymore

我会发着呆然后微微笑

I will be staring off into space, then I will break into a smile

接着紧紧地闭上眼

And then tightly close my eyes

又想了一遍妳溫柔的脸

Thinking once again, your tender face

在我忘记之前

Before I forget

心里的眼泪模糊了视线

The tears in my heart, have blurred my vision

妳已快看不见

You almost can’t see it anymore

._.

Today, woke up late for kayaking course, woke up at 7.23am -_- so took taxi and rushed to pasir ris park, hah, lucky TAs nvr scold me for being late. weeeeeeeeeeeeee ah and btw, sry valerie for telling you the wrong time! omg, paiseh

omg. the seawater there is so salty lah! pui pui! haha. so after dat had a great refreshing 'bath' and thanks for the shampoo and face wash lol Jovien haha. Aft everything Daniel Alan and me went to whitesands walk walk, cos alan wanted to buy bdae present for his classmate i tink. so ya, b4 that went to BK, very long havent eaten at BK alr wor its nice =d yum. But fattening!

So aft that as i said walk ard whitesands but ahh halfway daniel gtg so left only me and alan. so sian now, bought some pens, and later since i got so much time to spare decided to a/c alan to tampines mall again in his search for the orange thick ankle socks but in the end couldnt find...and just bought a normal one. Alan! You got 3 more daes left to buy sth for her! =D

so aft a/c'ing alan went back home, rested heard this song. Its..really like wad im being thru/experiencing now, really meaningful. :/

then went out to downtown east agn for PW, WHOAWHOAWHOA, DOWNTOWN EAST IS BEAUTIFUL, Especially the cadbury ferris Wheel inside, and all those cinemas, shops and KBOX! Lets all go there nxt time!

K Dats All Folks!!

I want to tell you, the love that I dare not express

2008-05-30T23:24:00.007+08:00

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee blogging agn aft hell lots of homework!!

Omg fell sick agn, missed lots of impt stuff in sch, especially the GCE interview! really dunno when i could get another time slot for it...or maybe I can't anymore! omg dere goes Hong Kong.. Edit: WAit mr goh told me to meet him at his office on Tues...9am..OMG. T_T scared AGN. and omg, heard from wei xiang the asked stupid qns like: Can you sing a song? O_O T_T.

ahh, so rested @ home today, made some breakfast, and started on hmk..first GP essay: woa i really didn't know what to write...and plus, i tink miss toh's gettin really strict and fierce...really scarey.

OMG plus plus plus econs quiz : 4/10!!! i just nid one more mark to pass...nvm..nvr really studied for it..no time for econs anyway.

Really wanted to enjoy some holiday life! But ya..kayaking course, Camp Aspire and especially PW!! TAkinG so much of my precious time. =( really super tired alr..camp aft camp, course aft course, seminar aft seminar, this is wad i call, stress. So secondary school kids out there, it's nth compared to jc and so dun complain =D secondary sch days are actually fun! and Stress FREE. They're are really killing us, aft the supplementary lectures/lessons, then immediately comes Camp Aspire...wad were they thinking? really didnt have time, hope all goes well and soon i'll be having my shopping sprees! :DDD

ok so camped at home all day, aft hmk went to use my comp, chatted online, played some gamies. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaha omg and watched the stupid things people do in youtube! its super funny and hilarious! Thursday really was the day i laughed the most, nvr really laughed my ass off for so so long, thanks Gab for showing me the freaking funny vids! and haha Great Singapore Sales now on! and maybe aft Camp Aspire we'll all go on a shopping spree! and ahh really screwed up chinese oral dat day, damn scary lah. i tink i gotta read more chinese stuff like newspapers or sth :(

hmm..and oh ya, haiyo, was sick for the day, and later went to see doc, got some funny pills agn O_O. Actually didnt want to go for the Kayakin' Course tml, cos i alrdy went for the one-star kayaking before and i swear it was crazy, with those sunburns and all, sigh. Sum1 bring SUNblocK PLS!
Really didnt wanna go, but you know why i still wanted to :X.

8 -10 am its sooooo early and i tink im gonn be aBIT late )=).

wah and thanks to mum for cooking dinner for ill-me! =) thanks mum! really didnt felt like this in a long time manz, motherly love =)) ok and thanks dad for a/c me to the clinic, fatherly love!! thanks dad! =)) omg. <3<3 size="2">
ok dats almost all, pretty busy day today altho im @ home, yeah and ya you know who you are and u better keep the secret! okies and erhh =) looking forward to tml actually. hope got vip going weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

ok gotta go see you guys sum other time!

100 days. Is it so hard?

2008-05-30T13:07:00.003+08:00

See, how can i ever ever forget you?

Nobody said you were the lousiest tree in the forest.

2008-05-28T00:22:00.005+08:00

Short post todae ;( gotta rush to my room to revise physics and chem bonding. ;(

OMG sch so boring.

haha, lucky today no oral (its on thursday) phew.

Interview on Friday, lucky, i tot its on wed. Nervous.

2 tests tml, wah stress.

and omg todae...went solo to heartland mall to buy earphones...aft i buy my mum call me whther want to buy bluetooth earphone she sponsor me...how unlucky and lucky man...so how?? buy creative bluetooth or dun buy since i alr bought one that cost $35 T_T...?

Omg, 12 more days to Xray for Braces!!!

IMY. takecare. Have lots of fun at preUsem!

2008-05-25T17:46:00.007+08:00

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee finally a chance to blog!

omg really forgot wad's happened before the CTC! But anws i shall try to summarise 'em ;)

FridaY: GP presentation was scary, but it was alrite aft all though, chose the topic cloning...and i tink i did a very not good job on it, as in I don't tink I elaborated enuff to shjow that cloning is hot ;( OMG, 3.30pm reporte at Lt2..and there marks the first day of CTC! thought it would be fun and all, but hahas it was a hell lot of torture. So in LT2, we got ready for the camp which will be held in school. omg, was caught sleeping once...ahhh. Really gotta sleep early next time, dat is, if I have no truckloads of HOMEWORK.

and next, guess wad, we were told to clean 6 classes. All the dust and all, the insect remains, spiders, eraser shavings, stapler bullets, wrappers, sigh...its yucks. The whole thing lasted 2 hrs. Tiring, boring were the words of complaint...but in the end, we were told that this was only 1/6 out of the total hours a part-time cleaner has to complete EVERYDAY. omg didnt know they worked so hard. so aft that we had dinner, spicy. and off we went to pitch our tents, alan and I decided to stay in one tent, and he's damn gay O_O. haha jkjk. In bwt all these, were scoldings and many things that made us demoralised, but it was worth it, we really learnt alot.

Saturday: OHHHH DAY 2! hmm mabe i shudden make it sound so fun. -_-

Saturday: day 2. damn hell lot of shit. woke up at ard 545...blah blah...and i was late for the meeting at 630, cos i spent so much time trying to look for BLACK socks in the DARK tent. oh so did 20 times of pushups..really discouraging and dmoralising for me. But luckily it was all normal again. So wramed up and ran outside ard SRJC...and went to the fitness corner whr the TAs told us to hang on the bar and ans HOD questions. Like who is the HOD of PW? blah blah..overal it was super tiring lahs..running to and fro from the staff board (outsde GO). So aft lunch..comes the WORST HOLY SHITY PART OF THE COUNCIL CAMP - Macritchie Trek. Treked for 25km, in 11 hours, you know how freakin long that is.

It is actually not that hard, but the fact that my freakin locker is FULL, and that i brought TOO MANY items fo the camp, and so i had to bring it to trek. 2 bags. one is ard 1kg for my crumpler,a nd the orther one was the stupid camp bag which weighed ard 8 kg approx.? (hope my estimation is correct haha) tupid. we even had to trek THROUGH forests, and went we got in the middle of it and we were like lost.

What were the TA's planning to do??? camp in the middle of the forest whr BIG BIG Red-Abdoment ants thrive in??? luckily no, got out of the forest into the trails agn wif the help of Mr Bernard Tan's compass. =) and tupid thorns, twigs, branches, low-lying tree trunks, spikes, vines, bloody insects, arachnids, and branches which were caught onto Alans backpack, and later released, which got free frm his backpack and hit my face. and omg now the worst part, all of a sudden (and i tot it was real), Mr Tan, told us there's a hornet atk soon..and commanded us to lie FLAT on the ground, which means, we had to squash our faces into the tupid dirty soil which accounts for the outbreak of too FREAKING PIMPLES.

SO this marks the start of the legendary CASUALTY GAME. I know this know this is the most impt and the 'highlight' of the camp, but i tink i'll pass on this one, and just to let you know, its the most tiring activity that i ever had in my entire life up till now, 10 times worser than canoeing training. Wanna BET? hahas. became verk weak cos of the bloody extra bag which i had to carry all the time, but i must really thank mr lau for carrying that bag if not i m really gonna die.

This tupid trek started at the start, trek trek, all te way to the ranger station, and we went into the forest agn, and the Casualty game started, and alter aft that we had to walk all the way back to Upp Thomson Rd. 25 km is not considered long, but wad if you had 2 bags to carry?

Soa ft we FINALLY REACHed Upp Thomson rd, fially. the long awaited dinner! and you know wad heavenly stuff we ate????? hotdogs, bread, tuna and bisuits. O_O some dinner. and just when i tot the bus would comeand send us back to SRJC cos it was quite late alr (830pm) but the journey continues...and we walked agn...for ard 3 km...to the lower peirce reservoir for NIGHTWALK, ahh by that i really got headache....but lucky Mr Kok, took care of my approx 8kg bag and so i only had to walk wif the less than1kg crumpler.

Oh ya btw, tot we could sumhow had a chance to bathe in the macritchie toilets, REALLY WANTED TO BATHE COS ALL OF US WERE SO STINKY!! BUT THEY SO CRUEL, SO WE HAD TO GO ON. So at first i was super scared...went int the nightwalk lane...dark. and quite long, supposed to walk alone, but allowed to walk wif jasmine, delaila, eveline and glennard since i wasnt feelin well and that eveline had vision prob in the dark so delaila had to assist her, but we got seperated as Mrs Esther Tan stopped all of us and asked me to go on first, wahhhh. The paths had lightsticks stuck there to tell us whr to go, they were really impt. finally got out,...

...and guess wad...we had to go in agn...now W/O lightsticks on the pathway. omg. so my turn, i went in, saw Valerie. helped her walk all the way out, since she couldn't see the dark areas w/o lightsticks.

Be Strong, Valerie! =)

I'll always support you =))

So 3rd DAy...finally. end of torture. warmed up in the morn, had breakfast, and HOD and Subject Head Q&A agn.. and had blah blah, im FREE. The feeling...wah..really like as if i was out from prison. LoL. so went home and im here blogging straight away! really tired, all the muscle aches and all, abit of headache...ahh..

ok that sums up everything for this wkend, physics test tml, and im so dead.

ok wow long post..gonna study physics forces and dynamics..and dream.

I really want it back. and

It's now all up to you,

I hope we can, once again

2008-05-17T22:13:00.003+08:00

OMG today boring day. Waste time - Events Management Seminar.
Bloody 4 hours sitting there and planning projects...sick, ya and later went to eat wif wei xiang alan and rohith...and went to play lan.

hmm yay i got my pay!!!
ya bought a black adidas hoody..and was also planning to get new shoes...but hmm...maybe tml or sumthing. Plus i gotta get Microsoft Office @ Funan tml!!! OMG nxt wk GP presentation!

I want it back as much as I want it to end

2008-05-16T23:35:00.002+08:00

Ah shit, i seriously feel like a damn loser. I hurt someone, and now im stuck.

dunno why i did it, but i still did, perhaps maybe out of anger?

seriously regreted, and i tink you will be 4ever feel hatred and cold towards me and i deserve it i know. i really wanna take back those words. I just wanted to move on- im trying. well i dont know i tink maybe i will 'move on' sooner or later, but i surely cant.

Ohh okays! abt today:

GP Test was FUN. ah felt pretty sleepy for most of the time in class today haha. And so aft GP test went to eat wif 1s04, and had abit of playground relaxation time! ABIT manz. Cos we gotta rush for Chem extra lesson =( lol. Mr Lau saw us at the playground OMG. We have deprived childhood eh? =)

So aft chem lesson rushed for council, rdy to face what i deserve to.

ANYWAY it is MY fault, I caused it. now I'm sorry, and let time heal the wounds. Im mean to you, but i swear i'll nvr be agn (even to anyone). I wanna be the best person you've ever met.

2008-05-15T22:16:00.002+08:00

I'm so gonna do well for that GP Compre Test tml. Thanks pals!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

First off I will just finish off the fun parts~:

Yay, had dinner with the PINK Gang, ard 11 ppl eat tgt in one big table, ended at around 7.45+pm

Ah den home swt home. <3

Lots of things have been happening to/and because/ of me; haiz, i don't know, I feel lke a loser.

I'm stuck in between. I'm confused. how.

gotta slow down, take a deep breath, relax, think abt my future, and temporarily forget abt romance love emo love and stuff.~~maybe its becos i came from boys sch for 4 years and then now in a mixed JC my hormones go raging.~~ =/

I tink it'll be best to focus on studies...like finishing tutorials in advance (!), read up on other chapters in advance, make sure i study hard and get an A or B for every test.

But if she gives me the chance, THEN I'LL TAKE MY CHANCES.

=D

Bleedin' Love

2008-05-13T20:52:00.008+08:00

I'm truely sorry. I truely apologise. I was insensitive to your feelings. What have I done. Didnt know that you will read it.

I said bad stuff to you, I'm really sorry.

I will never ever do it again, never will I break your heart ever again.

I didn't know you were that serious into it. I shouldn't have done it, I regret.

I have broken your heart, I'm deeply sorry, I'll never do it again.

I suffered then, but I didnt want to annoy you, you didnt want a relationship, i kept it all inside.

I'm sorry, I shouldn't have told you my feelings. I hurt you.

I'm sorry, I don't deserve you, I am shit.

I can't face you, I am ashamed.

I'm sorry for saying all that.

I don't mind if you dislike me, but I just want you to be forever happy, to lead life as normal.

Please leave me alone, just like you've always done.

Because you've hurt me too much, to be the right one

Even though we'll most likely never be together, I just can't let myself fall for anyone else

I'm insensitive, I'm bullshit, I'm truely sorry to you.

I don't and never hated you. and I hope you don't hate me.

Thomas sincerely apologises to precious her.

2008-05-12T01:33:00.003+08:00

Create your own Friend Test hereToday~Start of the stress but fun wk! Fun FuNz!Today PE played soccer, it wasss fun! wooo no more runs and napfa stuff! Cant wait till wed for another soccer match!LOL.haha today was damn tiring! sch lasted till ard 730, then after that haiz...still got pw to do..so all of my grp went to see miss yeo for some consultation...ya its was really gd, now we know how and what to do. yay.and later at evening aft the consultation, went home. POOFGotta study for Chem spa tml! byess. Really cant wait till June Hols! 2 more wks to go!Hold on! O ya btw! LUCKY passED my math graph test! 15/25! haha godd enuff alr...never fail i REALLY HAPPY ALREADY!!! *Relief*To those who didnt, really JIAYOUS AND STUDY HARD! LEAVE NO ONE BEHIND! =)1s04 UNITED!

It's time to heal my wounds

2008-05-11T20:37:00.016+08:00

My little gift card for my Mummy =)

sorry mum, cant get anythin' better cos i really ran out of cash =(

ya. wads this? ya i actually bought it for sum1 else's birthday, but decided to use it for Mummy's day. This sparkling card was meant to be given to that sum1, who WAS special to me for her nxt birthday .

I was insensitive. Edit: she's still special to me

so today basically just stayed at home, studied abit and played. And to get mentally prepared for another stressful, but crazy FUN week wif my 1S04 classmates!!!

So dat's all today and, ...

To all the mums in the world: You are LOVED!

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY !!!!!

btw sorry alan and yong khoon for all that talk and support you've given me all this while, Thanks. =)

My sun will shine one day

2008-05-11T03:36:00.009+08:00

Jon (Donkey) , Cheeming (Pig) , Me (Officially Dog)

Friday:

Woo last day of the week!

Best part and most fun part: Playground!!! and some act cuting =))))

ahh today was pretty boring especially the Leadership Seminar altho it was important
aft leadership seminar ard 7.30, had some council meeting to discuss plans for the walk-in songs for the SRJC investiture. Nice they love this track: Skies of Alexandra (FF9)

and so aft we decided on some other tracks i quickly went home as it was gettin quite late..bumped in rebecca, lisha, valerie and yan xin - Girls talk. Omg, i didnt know it was a girls' talk. so went to join them -_-. sat down and listened ---- omg didnt know they so sick (mentally)
lucky i got my psp to distract myself from those alphabets A, B, C, D, E(???) -_- GOSSIP all the way thru. Wanted to leave...but eh i dun wanna, cos i'll feel bad if i did. And around 8 mum called for dinner at jacksplace in parkway so ard 8.45 quickly rush there and YUM.

Saturday: Ahh woke up at 8.28am when im supposed to have physics extra lesson at 9am -_-. So rushed there by taxi ahh expensive manz..and i was still late by ard 15 mins. Then aft the physics lesson, gabriel, me , valerie, cheeming, nicole, elaine, lu lu, yong khoon went to hougang mall to eat...went LJS..4 gals one table, 4 boys another. O_O eh. and aft that we went to library awhile...ahh shit...that time my left eye contacts got prob and my eyes got red. and i actually found out my left lens was spoilt - threw it away and omg left eye no lens, right eye have = BLUR. didnt have a choice.!!! ahh must rmb to bring spare specs out nxt time in case.

den ard 3 cheeming, me took mrt to bugis to find eileen and shi hui. in the end shi hui reached the NLB herself, so we only got to wait for eileen. joel's got tuition.

As expected, eileen got lost taking 197 to bugis mrt and alighted at the city hall mrt dere...pro man
ahh i know la, driver fault rites... so aft meeting baby eileen, walked to NLB and started our research on ~~disney~~ Warner Bros.!! omg it was hell photocopying 80+ pages from all the books!!!!! + money oso. Cheeming we return u nxt time. =))

den around 8.30pm we decided to call it a day in the NLB so went to yoshinoya YUM. Ya EILEEN LIKES TO ADD SMELLY stuff onto her rice.

later met up wif joel whose tuition ended at ard 8.30. Finally decided to go to dhoby ghaut mrt area to do cont wif our PW proposal. ended at ard 10+. Sent eileen home and then poof im home here, studying abit, playing dota, chatting online and..blogging. =D

Weee dats all next im gonna sleep and prepare for MOTHER's DAY tomorrow!!!

You're beautiful

But only love can say - try again or walk away

But I believe for you and me

The sun will shine one day

So I'll just play my part

And pray you'll have a change of heart

But I can't make you see it through

That's something only love can do

2008-05-08T22:43:00.003+08:00

Tml maths test sure die. havent study yet. gonna chiong later!

wee found some tracks for the student council investiture:

Shared some with Hafiz:

-Cannon D Major
-Loss of Me
-Cid's Theme
-Les Partition
-Sky above Alexandria
-The Stage is Set

Quite nice tracks love it.

Science day today was always tiring!

Especially PW! ahh maybe i made the wrong choice to be the leader.
I know its gonna be damn stress, i can feel it like an incoming tidal wave.
its gonna crash on me HARD.

Jc life is stress. Gotta manage my time REALLY well + Council stuff

Its a challenge, i've accepted it. so i gotta finish it.

Almsot died today..tupid CheeminG

ALMOST DIED >;(

ok dats all today i guess dun have time alrdy, gotta go study Graphing Techiques Chapter 7, 8 and 9! Bye~

Ur presence filled my heart's emptiness

2008-05-07T20:58:00.007+08:00

Great Day.
Timin' for 2.4km: 548 seconds!!
Napfa is over! Gold!

=))

A BIG thing happened to me today. Didnt know why I jus felt that...
erm ya, her _. =)))))))))) Finally

Don wanna elaborate anymore! X/

So today aft sch, went for 1st council meeting! So many things (workshops, camps etc) CominG our way! So we basically split into 2 groups to discuss about the Camp Aspire Campfire Plan. Hahas i tink its gonna be damn fun X) Everybody's gotta have something to be in charge on, so Alan, valerie and I became in charge of the skit (did i spell it correctly?) AHH. How. tink its quite hard to direct and plan a 10 minute skit. OMG. This calls for my CREATIVE JUICES! X) Cant wait for the SRJC Investiture too!

And Eileen! i dun bully u alr ok!!!!! so dun bully me!!!!!

=S

Ah so went home and,

Sooooooooo check out my doodle of the day in sch:

Dats all peeps gtg and God Bless!

I guess you are starting to diminish from my mind now. Im sorry. However, I tink you will be so DARN happy that I did.

2008-05-07T01:38:00.004+08:00

YAY, 2.4km Run tomorrow morning! gotta do my bestzz! Gotta beat my personal best timing!

Today was pretty boring, started with a friggin boring hard maths quiz, halfway b4 lunch chem mock spa and then ended wif a borin...CT period in the hall.

As usual went out wif Rohith, Alan...and this time wif Yong Khoon agn! really long time nvr go out lerz! Went RK house eat dinner..and AS USUAL - 3 roti pratas egg onions and bubble peach milktea!! =ppp

and hey YK dun wry im fine, its bcos i was really tired, not emo'ing uhs!

and here im home chatting on msn for quite long wif my mummy

ya and some classmates + @#$

veri scarey.

wait b4 i 4gt better note down:

Sign Giro Form

Fill up Aspire Form

Do GP mindmap, summary

Do chinese 我的母亲 worksheet

ok!~

ahh cant finish! but luckily GP is right b4 lunch so i can do during Lunch =)))) And Chinese must go sch early do!! =O

ahh, my phone is so spoilt now, can switch off by itself de. Need new one alr! =///

and hell im nosebleeding while typing this -_-
stupid acne medicine make me nosebleed like no one's business. But oh well its the results I want so I dun realli care abt the consequences O_O.

Ok..dats all i nid my tissue box now..gtg peeps

oh ya maybe i shud spice up my posts with "Doodle of the Day" =DDD

Be sure to check it out ya! =PPP

No Love, no Motivation.

2008-05-05T23:44:00.005+08:00

OMG CANT BELIEVE I GOT ELECTED INTO THE 21st STUDENT COUNCIL!!

AHH feel sad for those who didnt get in manz really

Dun worry we are still frens! =)

still, i really think that the election is really quite rigged! sigh. =(( I still think they gotta show how many votes we get to ensure fairness manz =// Who knows the votes were not even taken into consideration but only the teachers' comments?

hmm...today was fun. and especially funny during last lesson of the day!~ MATHS

Ahh now i rmb tml got maths mock and chem mock tests..HAVENT REVISE YET!

That &@Y... today like so high... and really dunno whther real anot, 私人房'ing himself in class, MAKE THE WHOLE CLASS ROFL

The stalking verii scary. tian ah

Then aft the funny maths lesson went out with rohith alan daniel, went mac to buy a FEAST !! Alan greedy uhhh requested for so mani types of sauses...and 5 pacs each o.0 hahas. Then we headed to Daniel's house spend time and have fun watching LAME youtube videos and feasting on our mac takeaways.

Daniel ! dont't worry we can still be in Camp Aspire! And plus u CT rep oso! Happy always uh!

ok eat until dam full yum yum

Fries, Sundae, Cheeseburger, McChicken, Milo - I'm Bloated. Nvm! I can take this as a reward for Napfa 5 stations today!

I tink im a pig man, aft eating slept for a while while reading comics on the floor??? omg.

ahh speaking of which the napfa was quite ok..

SBJ - 245 cm -------------B
Situp - 43 ----------------A
SitReach - 47 ------------B
Pullup - 6 ----------------C (Bernard Tan didnt count my 3 extra pull ups!! cos i "kicked"??? ABITTT????)
ShuttleRun - 9.0s ------A

And predicted,

2.4km - <9.20mins>

So total estimated: 4+5+4+3+5+5 = 26 points GOLD

=DDDDD

I really deserve that mac feast manz yums!!

ahh gotta srt wakin'' up early tml! mus reach sch b4 7.15am!! sianzzzzz

Sometimes I really wish...

2008-05-05T01:41:00.010+08:00

ME, GABRIEL
ME, GABRIEL, JON
CHERLENE, GAB, CHEEMING, ME AND HALF-VAL

1S04 UNITED!!!

ME, VAL

ME, CHERLENE

O_O STUNNED MANZ

CHERLENE, GABRIEL, ME, VALERIE, EILEEN

GAB, ME, BEXX, CHEEMING

YESTERDAY'S YESTERDAY : SATURDAY
I feeling high now so EVERYTHING WILL BE IN CAPS WEEEEEEE!!

SRJC MUSICAL WAS WAYYYYYYYYYYYYY BEAUTIFULLLL

ME, GAB, CHERLENE

DANCE WAS GREAT, STORY WAS WAYY NICE AND ROMANTIC~

AFT THAT STAYED OUTSIDE E THEATRE TK PICS WIF CLASS (NICE! =D)

WHEN everything ENDED, ACTUALLY WANNA GO WIF 1S04 TO EAT!! =O BUT WENT WIF GREG TO CHECKPOINT (sumthing like dat, dunno the name -_-) WENT FOODCOURT B4 GOING TO PLAY POOL. LOL DEN THERE SAW 1S04 AGN =d! ATE WIF GREG, FREAKIN SPICY MY FOOD, WASTE $4 ON DRINKS =(( AHH SORRY GREG, PS'ed U, hope u not angry uhs paiseh ah -_-"

OH YA IM OFFICIALLY BROKE. NXT WK NOT GOING OUT OFTEN SO HOME IS THE BEST PLACE TO BE! =xx

LATER B4 GOIN HOME, ALAN CALLED ME SAY WHTHER WANNA JOIN THE BENG BENG PINK GANG GO SUPERBOWL PLAY PLAY.. HAHA GO HOME OSO DO HMK..SO YEA...I JOINED THEM HALFWAY WHEN THEY WERE PLAYIN' POOL, PLAYED 3-4 GAMES OF POOL WIF ALAN.

FUN LAH OK.

ENDED QUITE LATE, ARD 9+PM, DEN HEADED WENT BUSTOP, HELP ALAN TAKE SOME CAM WHORING PICS AND WENT OVER TO THE OPPOSITE SIDE OF THE BUSTOP POOF HOME SWEET HOMEY!! =PPP

TIRED.

YESTERDAY : SUNDAY

BORING DAY, COS GOTTA CHIONG AND FINISH UP ALL MOII HMK!!!

~~TUTORIAL 8 & 9~~

~~GP COMPRE & HIGHLIGHTING~~

PHYSICS FILE

REVISE SPA STUFF

AHHHH. FINISHED almost EVERYTHING AND NOW IM BLOGGING WEEE!
TODAY BASICALLY STAYED AT HOME, PALYED DOTA BNET WIF ALAN, LEE, KEVIN AND HANREN - ITS BOTH FUN AND..NOT FUN??

FREAKING NOOBS DUN PLAY DOTA LAH WASTE MY(OUR) TIME

FLAMED THEM LIKE FREE, MADE THEM "CRY" IN FRONT OF COMP XDDD

BNET SO MANY #$%^#$@ LEAVERS AND MOSTLY NOOBS!!!!! X(

OK NOW THE FUN PART

DOTA WAS ALWAYS FUN RIGHT??, YES!!. =PP

LOL. OKIE I GTG ITS LIKE 2 AM NOW AND I STILL GOT:

PHYSICS SPA REVISION

PHYSICS FILE

OMG. LOOKS LIKE I REALLY GOT NO INTEREST IN PHYSICS. =//

OH WELL.

GTG BYE AND GOD BLESS! =d

WAIT MA'TE MA'TE !!!!

TOMORROW (EH..ITS TODAY LOL) COUNCIL RESULTS COMING OUT!!!

CRAP...IF I DUN GO IN ALL MY EFFORT (AND THE VOTES) IS(ARE) WASTED!!

AHHH I REALLY WANNA GET IN AND I HOPE MY SPEECH DURING R&E THAT DAY REALLY GOT SOME VOTES IN FOR ELECT 32, THOMAS THE TRAIN ENGINE X))

WAIT THAT REMINDS ME OF...AHH SHIT IM BEING STALKED.

OK DATS ALL WISH ME GOOD LUCK!

OK NOW REALLY GTG AND CANT WAIT FOR TML'S PE!!

*DROPS DEAD*

*SLEEPS*

I don't know what I should do now: continue, or just trample on this last fragment of hope?

2008-05-02T12:24:00.003+08:00

Poof...im sick agn todae. coupled up with headaches and NOSEBLEEDIN

ok ytd went out wif the pink gang to buy some...eh i dun wanna say..=/

ya dats all don wanna elaborate..

omg. saturday college day, dun feel like going...i just feel that its a waste of time.

ahh a while more gotta go out to the optician...altho im sick, to get my lenses.. =DD

ahh ya im depressed, but still managed to blog abit.
okgtg.

2008-04-30T00:00:00.004+08:00

Ah. Today was the day R&E! ah really hoped I can go into council...haiz rmb me THOMAS THE TRAIN ENGINE!!!!! ELECT 32!!

Sat for like 1 hr "stationary", until i went to speak..hey i tink i can speak publicly now yayayay...i just nid the content dats all yeah. =DDDDD i want to speak. =X

went out to make contact lenses todae weeee...went to the optician wif alan while he collected his new specs there. Then slacked at some hdb block...listening to my favvvv song: Stay Beautiful - Taylor Swift, not really emoing...but instead RELAXing..until ard 9+ pm =D

Finally a load of stuff off from my mind (Council)..+ one pending one ready to be let go...hahas..

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee.........................I feel so free now...Cos i could finally let go anytime alrdy....!

=/

Ah. Gotta study chem redox and econs test for tml aft this. =((

ya...

oh well! =))

Friends are really still the best!

haha...still miss 1s22 PAE... -_-" regreted emoing ovver some btch that time..really wasted. =(

IRON MAN OUT TML!

=DDD

ok gtg byess.! God Bless!

2008-04-25T22:10:00.005+08:00

DYNAMIC ENTRRRRRYYYYYY!!!!

Hahas. ahh finally back here agn! =D

so ytd me Rohith, Alan and Daniel went to Daniels house to make some sandwich boards...for campaign (but omg, we didnt use it in the end -_-) oh wells. nvm. OMG, and that Rohith introduced this RETARDED, NO-LINK, HILARIOUS, OUT-OF-THE-WORLD, MUSIC VIDEO. HERE GOES:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZA1NoOOoaNw&eurl=http://tommified.blogspot.com/

ROFL'ed the whole nite in Daniel's house till ard 11pm. HAHA.

And yea for TODAY: FRIDAY

Hell, rehersals for the actual Rally and Elections. Ah. felt damn nervous and after making my speech..while walking back to my seat. I accidentally bumped into Mrs Tan...guess wad..my legs were so weak and numb, almost fell down...see i was THAT NERVOUS ;(

Not really a waste of time, altho it was boring, and scary.

So question of the day: what do you joining council for?

well everything ended dam late - ard 730pm then later went out wif Rohith and ALan for some talk lol.

OMG GTG I FORGOT ABOUT DOTA!!!! and by the WAY HOPE YOU ENJOYED THAT VID, NEXT TIME CAN SING WITH ME ROHITH, DANIEL AND ALAN XDXDXD

BEJAYYY ROCKS!

68 Days. I love you but im letting go.

OK GTG PEEPS!

2008-04-23T21:58:00.005+08:00

SPEECH TOMORROW.

OMG.

SCARED.

Ahh didnt step out of house today cos i was "sick", =(( uh basically stayed at home to study (play ABIT).

ahh VSXC! im so sorry! I really hope i can come, but i really couldnt. =( So maybe during JC2 ya (or poly =/) ?

Wah, i gotta rush PI!!!!! gottaGo!

67 days. Going Strong

2008-04-22T22:13:00.004+08:00

Missing all VS Cross Country friends, pals, comrades and Thailand trips!

random..haha =D

2008-04-22T21:18:00.003+08:00

OhhhhmyGosh. tml's the 2008 cross country nationals! ahh im so in a dilemma now...shud i go to sch tml, or go down to botanic gardens to support my fellow juniors and friends? =(
ahhhh

haiz. If i could, i really would =/

nvm...anws abt today..nth much? hahas. Went out with alan to buy tissue boxes for our council campaign, wah bought 10 boxes - so ex ;[ and worst is i gotta carry em home..wait LUCKILY, i rmb my dad! so called him to fetch me and yea thx alot papa~ save me so much time and energy. =DD

o ya, omg, and before that we ate at the coffee shop near heartland...u know we financially weak ppl,..no money go heartland mall eat. =) and all of a sudden one chinese indian woman, erm a mother popped out and guess wad, she took out a piece of worksheet, told us that her child SPENT 1 HOUR TRYING TO SOLVE IT AND CRIED IN THE END. o.o

ok so we took a look at the front page - PRIMARY FOUR MATHEMATICS WORKSHEET ;O

weeeee sure OWNAGE!!!!

not.

we got OWNed by that qn 5** (two star??? 0.o) instead.

even i h2 maths oso nid ard ard 5 mins staring at the paper...haiz. What's worst is that we had to use all the primary sch method lah...sickening. cant even use algebra! The mother left us with the worksheet and a pencil box and went to her daughter to do sumthing...=///
I really pity primary sch kids man, cant even use calculator. once i even reached for that pencil box and found out - no calculator. sianz and long strings of mental and manual calculations came along. T_T

hahas. but we still managed to solve it. ya. phew. to even think that JC students cant even solve a PRIMARY 4 qn. -_-

ya so after buying some "special" stuff...and pooF, im home here blogging. ok gtg!

66 days. Going strong.

2008-04-21T22:43:00.005+08:00

Ok, how did i ever find the time to blog O.0 but well, POOF, I still did hahas
yay today - 1500m 2nd! clap* clap* =DD

so ok nth much abt today...feeling headache all the time cos of accutane (some medicine for acne ;[ ) tot todae's gonna be a fine day...then miss toh said, "THOMAS TODAE STAY BACK FOR GP TEST!"

So ya..headache went on...endured till the end of that gp essay writing...
sigh...sure fail agn...couldnt even concentrate! ;( library more like coffee shop la

zomg. physics measurement test. only 3...........................................passed. Disgrace. I failed.
physics xux man, but oh well i still nid consultation from miss guo!

anyway, i expected this cos i didnt have time to study! you noe, council stuff taking up so much of my time (+ COMPULSORY PSP SESSION) and if i didnt get into council all of effort go down the drain and poof, back to runners club. disgrace. and if mid years do badly, thats it. poly life ahead for me :/ and then i'll put the past behind, 4gt everything and MOVE ON.

HMK IS BORING. still got maths tutorial to do, and im still here blogging. uhhhhh >.<
er ya. i wanna do well for midyear. ok. lets see...psp.....tempting....dota...1 game wont hurt...

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Byes i go do hmk. GottaGo!

65 days. Going strong.

2008-03-18T21:50:00.004+08:00

Tomatofied! Giving you up is my worst nightmare.

Omg...LATE! woke up at ard 6.50am..and i'm still at home hahas. omg 2 more times and there goes my conduct grade. T_T
hahas. First time notti..went to cafe for hotdogs during chem prac! xDD. thrilling for me i tink? =PP Anyways today was a day like any other...just dat the pain just got abit more painful..hahas. emotional pain. =/ the feeling of being neglected..and ah..lonely i guess?
Tryin' not to emo! its painful x( but, oh well...

Waiting here for you to call me
For you to tell me
That everything's a big mistake
Waiting here in this rainfall feeling so small
This dream was not supposed to break

But you dont love me anymore
You dont want me anymore
And there's a sign on your door
No vacancies just emptiness
Without your love I'm homeless...

Giving you up is my worst nightmare.

And as usual, hung out for a while again at the playground with YK and Alan!

Well that playground..filled with memories I'll never forget! Rarely got to see her after JAE started..sad eh? =

2008-03-17T22:01:00.001+08:00

Tomatofied! I'll be waiting...

Hey hey hey! Wah! O.O ytd's canoeing course was so tiring >.<...and ya...got sunburns here and there, esp on my forearms - so red! Those BUGGERS nicknamed me "LOBSTER" lah! Hope this red tan goes away man! Haiz..need sunblock for water training alrdy, I don't wanna look like Hellboy lahh =_=

Anyways, today was the start of the 2nd term alrdy - cannot afford to slack anymore - MUGGING TIME!!, hmm well maybe some psp breaks in between hahas. (: And I really miss my VICTORIA ALL WHITE UNIFORM!! Hate SRJC new GAY uniform! haiz nvm well maybe I'll get used to it soon =( Dumb..la dunno who suggested to change the uniform..the previous srjc uniform is so much nicer than the new one luh, sigh =_=".

Okays, today ah..first chem lecture...slept most of the time cos they teaching redox AGAIN...and ah omg my fav GP tchr Miss Toh absent!!! Den we got some lousy relief GP teacher..but ok la..quite friendly..practised writing some introductions..hell ah. Nxt..woo PE!!! Sad lahhs ok, my height so short (duno wanna say lah..T_T)..gained 2KG SUMMORE!! but overall is 100% fit hahas dunno why. HAHA I'm FIT! O.O....and todae tot it'll be fun...tot we could play some games..but, it turned out the same as CANOEING land training! no choice la. PE teacher is canoe tchr-in-chrge - Mr Lim =(( Btw..my passion for running is back! Time to get new shoes...for another new start! :DDD Gonna do my best for napfa 2.4km run ya~ =))

After sch, 5.30pm - supposed to go for canoe training! but hell so many ppl not going so decided not too. plus i wasnt feeling well - headache from all dat stress =(( So waited for YK and Alan's PE to end, and hung out at the void deck near the playground..ate some otah, waffles, BUBBLE TEA :DD and yea talked and talked...soon gotta go home fast cos i was on the verge of puking all the food out! @ home lucky nvr vomit, in fact my appetite came back!..HAHAS

Oh I just love multitasking! Blogging and doing homework at the same time haha. Binomal Expansion - It just gets easier, heh heh:DDD
O ya, and my target for this midyear! Preferbly some As and Bs, but no Cs pls =PP Getting a hang of physics too, and its getting phun again lols. why did I drop my physics in sec 4? =_=

Ok peeps gtg! =PP